had the insurance meeting at work today - how bad was it? well, i burst into tears in the middle of the meeting. i'm so fucked. might have to postpone or cancel my video eeg at the end of the month - i don't have the $300 deductible + $100 hospital visit + 10% of the final bill just sitting around in my bank account. dammit, i should've gotten it done last year. thank god my gall bladder shit happened last year - otherwise, it'd probably cost me $1,500+...argh...

more depressing news later....lemme just say things SUCK.

cute t-shirts...

aww shit, some of the stuff i wanted to get at the doughboy store is sold out already...hafta get those 1200+ doughboy points shipped in soon!!!

another mah jongg-less mah jongg night...at least dale showed up to this one...greg was still awol, off in atlanta or something...so we got dinner from uno and started watching tv - trading spaces is a really neat show on tlc...then, rather than play games, we retired to the living room and watched some stuff we had taped - the weakest link with gary coleman (he confessed on the show - he's a virgin!) and ron jeremy (ron should've won, not that skanky rick rockwell!) after the weakest link, we watched last week's episode of queer as folk - the season two premiere. woah, i forgot how much i love this show! i ordered season one on dvd, i'll be sure to start watching that asap...

so i went and saw cassandra today - i persuaded all the co-workers to cough up a couple of bucks and i went and bought her a plant and some balloons and a card. then i headed up to community hospital...her room was in the stroke center, but right above her room was a "seizure center" sign - guess that's where i'd end up if i started having bad seizures again. but i digress...well, turns out they'd released her from community and sent her to miller's merry manor for rehab. so i went there - it was pretty depressing, it looks like it's mainly an old folks home - lots of shriveled up old white ladies sitting around. i found cassie's room and walked in - i barely recognized her, she looked different. her eyes lit up when she saw me and she said "it's my friend! my friend's here!" i was glad to see her smile, but i'm pretty sure she didn't really recognize me. her daughter shawna and her niece (forget her name) were there, so i told them i was from the trader, and that we were all thinking about cassie and praying for her. when shawna read the card to her mom, she started choking up, about to cry. cassie didn't understand why though - i don't think she understands at all what's happened. she's just like a big kid - like i said about her lighting up when i walked in the room, and she told me all about her babies - the stuffed animals that people brought her. she's having a hard time with the vocabulary too - you can see her trying really hard to think of the words and they just don't come. she also said some stuff to me that just didn't make any sense, i had to smile and nod at her, because it was clear that she thought she was saying something logical to me. it's obviously very hard on shawna - when she walked me out she told me that cassie will be there in rehab for a month probably, and that the doctors were amazed at how well she was doing - her stroke was only a week ago. she said she was just going to try to hang on to her mom's house while she's in rehab, so it sounds like there might be some money problems there.

*sigh* it's just not fair.

B3 d- t- k+ s-- u-- f i o x e- l++ c

ever wonder what the hell a certain group of animals is called? well, here's the website to find out...certainly something to brush up on before that jeopardy audition...*8-)

okay, i can breathe a little bit easier now. the disability check came in the mail today. *whew!* my savings account still took quite a hit, but that's what the savings account's for, right?

brain break...tonight started out rather crappily - i arrived to find that since cheryl now leaves promptly at 7pm, i get all her unfinished work dumped into my lap. of course, this wasn't what kim intended, there was a lack of communication between day and night shifts - big surprise there. i got it all done, but it took forever cuz i certainly didn't want to fuck up a cover or three...

cassandra, the cleaning lady here at the trader, had a stroke...i knew she wasn't doing good, being diabetic and on dialysis and all, but it's still a shock...she's a really nice lady...carl, the cleaning guy, said that she's not doing too well, didn't even recognize her kids...how freaky is that...

if i was a female from a kevin smith movie, i'd be:

You're a very open and adventurous person, you've been around the block and back several times. Yet, as all people do, you realize that this life style cannot go on forever and need to settle down. Hopefully as more time progresses you'll stick to one gender and not be so greedy! Take The "Which Kevin Smith Female Are You?" Quiz!!

heh heh heh...

What pop icon are you? Here's me:

alrighty, lessee if i can put in a comment system without fucking things up this time...*8-) this one's from rateyourmusic.com

a few links to peruse in my spare time: Indianapolis Metropolitan Planning Organization and Hoosiers for Transit Options - discussion of the possibility of light rail in indy and the suckage that is the northeast side of town...

ahhh, i love kazaa...much better than aimster...who knows how long it'll be around, but for now i'm downloading lots of stuff....on an 80s kick at this moment - got some playlists from tvmusic4u.com and now i'm burning the stuff to disc...

okay, i guess my sleep schedule is now COMPLETELY fucked up - i get tired, i take a nap, nap ends up being 7 hours long so then i don't sleep for a long time, then sleep for a little bit...whatever. just totally fucked up - not like my normal schedule (which "normal" people consider to be fucked up) and not like the schedule of the aforementioned "normal" people either...

i wish i could remember more details to the seizure i had xmas night - still dealing with the after-effects of it, i think...i remember lying down in bed, the next thing i remember is waking up on the couch, the back of my head just hurting like a bitch. what the hell did i bang it on?!? it STILL hurts, a week later - i suspect i got some sort of concussion. dunno if i need to go to the doc at this point or not - i'd think so, since a bump on the head shouldn't hurt this freakin long...

on the epilepsy issue, i'm reading a book from the library, living well with epilepsy, and it brought up an interesting point regarding epileptics and driving - it's totally discriminatory the laws that some states have regarding suspension and revocation of licenses for epileptics. "If suspensions are in the interest of public safety, as some claim, why aren't the same restrictions placed on people who have had a heart attack or a stroke? Why should we be singled out? Why should we be denied the right to drive? Why should we be forced to surrender our driver's licenses? I'll tell you why. It is because there is a residual stigma to epilepsy..."

maybe it wouldn't be such an issue for me if i didn't live in indianapolis. but the fact is, the public transportation in this city SUCKS. big time. if i could hop on a bus and go to work, i'd do it, even if it took longer to get there - and i have done that in the past. but since the trader office is now in fishers, it's not even a possibility. there's been discussion of a light rail system being developed and that would definitely solve the problem for me - but they're looking at just widening highways instead. i wish i didn't have to rely on my car so much to get around this town, but that's the way it is. why don't we focus on the light rail idea and then perhaps we wouldn't need to widen every fricking highway in town to make room for a car for each and every person that lives here?

welcome to aught two, everyone!

whew, 2001 is over, thank god!

let's start the new year off resolved to make it a trillion times better than last year...

shouldn't take much work, actually...

Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz

i'm becoming TOTALLY addicted to fark.com's photoshop category...someone posts a random photo, and then people make additions or changes to it, using photoshop or some such image editor...there's a lot of crap, but there are also pix that show amazing creativity and originality...

Tom & Ray rock!

urgh, this night is d...r...a...g...g...i...n...g...holiday weeks always screw me up anyways - just point me in the right direction and send me on my merry way, i guess!

argh! so, last week we had to turn in our enrollment forms for health insurance. currently, i have prudential's hmo, which seems to work great for me. but aetna bought prudential, so effective jan 1, no more prudential, no more hmo - i'll be under aetna's ppo. ppo's are supposedly so much more wonderful because there's so much more choice - blah blah fucking blah. i never had a problem getting the required referrals and stuff. all i know is that my premiums are going up (tho not through the roof like my married and/or with children co-workers), i'll now have a $300 deductible that i didn't have before, my doctor visits will be $15 or $20 (instead of $10) and my prescription costs will TRIPLE. used to be, i could use the mail order company and send in a one month co-pay and get a three month supply for the price of one month. not any more - they want me to send in two months' copays for a two month supply. what's the advantage to that?!? for most normal people, i suppose that's not a big deal, but i have 10 prescriptions to fill! and i'm supposed to have a video EEG in the hospital in january, but i'm gonna have to cancel that because i sure as hell don't have the $300 co-pay. i suppose i should just shut the hell up and consider myself lucky that i have _some_ insurance, but to go from having such good coverage to this _SHIT_ is quite a shock.

*grumble grumble grumble*

had a nice christmas, even though it seems as though everyone is sick with a head cold or some such illness...stayed at mommy's xmas eve - we cooked a big-ass ham...pooky came over xmas morning and we opened presents - lots of goodies! i did good picking out mom's clothes, i wasn't sure they'd fit, but they did...in the afternoon pooky and i went to my place, since that's where dad was bringing the kids...the phucker was actually EARLY - showed up at 1:45 instead of 2...coulda been cuz he had a woman with him...can't remember her name, something hard to pronounce...dad says they went to school or something together and have been talking on the internet...god only knows what he's been telling her...*shrug*...it was good to see matt & paige again...since they were s'posed to be there at 2, i hadn't made any plans for lunch or anything - well the kids come in talking about how they're _starving_ and how everything was closed...luckily i had stuff to make a pot of spaghetti, so we had some food...paige is a little whiny butt, and readily admits that she's spoiled...so she begged me to do shrinky-dinks and i said yes - my pillsbury doughboy turned out rather well. *8-) her designs turned out good as well, she seems to have a knack for it (could be why she was begging me to do "something artistic")...matt made a Mr. Hankey, the xmas poo from south park...

all in all, a good xmas...until i had a seizure late xmas night - argh! i'm thinking i'm gonna have to cancel my video eeg cuz i don't have $300 just sitting around to pay the deductible next year...man, they really FUCKED us on the health insurance, that's all i can say...

well no wonder rudolph was pissed at being left out of the reindeer games!

The Top 15 Reindeer Games:
15. Strip poker with Santa's granddaughter
14. Attach the Mistletoe to Santa's Ass
13. Spin the Salt Lick
12. Crapping down the chimneys of non-believers
11. Moose or Dare
10. Flying into the "No Fly Zone" over Iraq just to watch Saddam do a slow burn and Santa dampen his Depends
9. Bait-and-Shoot Elmo
8. The Annual Turn-Frosty-Yellow-from-50-Paces Contest
7. Scare the Holy Crap Out of the Airline Pilot
6. Convince the Elves to Eat "Raisinets"
5. Pin the Tail on Santa's Big Fat Animal-Abusing Ass
4. Hide the Venison Sausage with Vixen
3. Elf Tossing
2. Sniff the Tail on the Donkey
and the Number 1 Reindeer Game...
1. The "Rudolph the Shitfaced Reindeer" Drinking Game

I Hate Having My Birthday On Christmas
By Jesus. Posted on 2001-12-24
Having My birthday on Christmas sucks. Those of you out there who were born on or around December 25th know what I'm talking about. If you're born in July or February, your birthday is something special. It's YOUR day, and your friends and family take special care to treat you well and buy you gifts and simply celebrate. But if your birthday is on Christmas, like Mine is, you get lost in the shuffle. EVERYONE is celebrating, EVERYONE is buying gifts for EVERYONE else, and you're just not special. The worst is when people buy you fucking "combination" birthday and Christmas gifts. What a load of donkey crap! Everyone else gets TWO sets of gifts, and I only get one. And you think they spend twice as much on Me? Hell no. It's always the same excuse, "It's the holidays so we couldn't afford to spend a whole lot". The cheap fuckers. Even back when it was just My birthday and nobody else was making a big deal out of it, I still got shafted. I mean, what the hell are Frankincense and Myrrh, anyway? So this year, I'm not going to celebrate Christmas. I'm not buying gifts for ANYBODY but Me. (Dad's really hard to shop for anyway. Talk about the Guy who literally has EVERYTHING). Maybe it's time to give Kwanzaa a try.

"Do you think you surf the Net a lot? Here's a way to test your skills. Each year Terra Lycos releases the most popular search terms for the year. Take a stab at guessing the number one search in each of the categories listed."

go ahead, take the quiz!

how'd ya do? here are my results - no cheating! if ya haven't taken the test yet, look no further. *8-P

I scored 78% (7 out of 9 correct):
1. Most searched-for term on Lycos.com in 2001:
You said Osama Bin Laden. The correct answer is Dragonball.
dragonball? alrighty - we're obviously not heading to lycos to find out the latest headlines...

2. Most searched-for band:
You said The Beatles. The correct answer is N Sync.
oh jesus...i figured with george harrison dying recently, perhaps the beatles searches would increase dramatically...

3. Most searched-for woman:
You were right: Britney Spears.
interesting - RuPaul was one of the options for this question!

4. Most searched-for man:
You were right: Osama bin Laden.
well, duh - everyone wants that $25million...of course he's the most searched for!

5. Most searched-for sports star:
You were right: Anna Kournikova.
only cuz they wanted to see her nekkid!

6. Most searched-for fad:
You were right: Nostradamus Hoax.
of course, they started getting all those nostradamus hits on september 11...

7. Most searched-for TV show:
You were right: Big Brother.
yeah, i guess the 6 people that watched the lame-ass show watched the lame-ass net feeds too...

8. Most searched-for film:
You were right: Harry Potter.
was a toss-up between harry and lord of the rings - lotr's now ranked as the #1 (of the top 250) movie on the imdb, how's that for weird?

9. Most searched-for news event:
You were right: September 11 Attacks.
well, duh...

it'd be interesting to see the results from other engines, such as google and jeeves...

good to know i'm not the only one doing depraved shit in photoshop....

so, i'm gonna be having the get together this year for my dad and brothers and sister, here in my apartment...i'm finding i have to do a little "straightening up" - particularly the refrigerator, covered in magnetic poetry - very QUEER poetry at that, some of which i assembled, other works of art done by friends that have stopped by...

of course, adam (my 20 year old brother) knows i'm a big ol' dyke and he's had his flirtations with bisexuality (not sure how he defines his orientation these days) but it's my half brother and half sister that i have to watch out for - matt's 13, paige is 9. i have a _very_ strained relationship with their mother (my ex-stepmonster) and don't want to give her any reason to keep bro and sis from coming to visit me, so it's better to just set aside anything that the kids might see and casually mention to their mom...

i can keep most of the magnets up, but some of the dirty sentences that have been composed and some of the outright sexual words will be relocated to a cupboard...

some fridge favorites that will be removed or shuffled around:
"a curvaceous butt is the center of everything"
"do you like a pink vibrator up in your voluptous bottom"
"nympho juice is loose in your caboose"
"we want sleazy love deep up in the tweedledee"
"the fabulous butt thrust is amazingly easy to do"

hrmmm, i hadn't realized i had such a butt theme going on there! *8-)

other faves:
"horny halibut need pimping"
"she had me slurping like a nasty chickadee"
"i desire an excellent licking tonight please"
"naked sheep strut with vulgar homosexuality"
"naughty women are my poetry"

my magnetic poetry calendar next to the computer will need reorganizing as well - it doesn't have all the blatant sexual words, yet i still managed to make dirty poetry. *8-) to wit:

"blow me
a time to come all over
let a rain storm begin

she can open you
hear her gentle murmurs
remember the moment"

urgh, time to get back to the cleanup...

ya know, i've really been looking forward to going to see that new Russell Crowe movie, "A Beautiful Mind"...but now i'm not so sure...perhaps i'll just read the book instead...

i love biopics, and i know that from time to time you have to change certain facts or events around to make a good movie, but apparently John Nash's sexual orientation was deemed too controversial for a major motion picture and they've left all of his gay experiences out...

so, it's alright to be crazy, just not gay...sounds like the sort of thing that calls for a boycott of the film studios involved...

for more info, check out this link, at the drudgereport.com...

ya know, personally, i think russell crowe in some man-on-man action could be kind of _HOT_... ;-)

just got a call from robin - there's no need for me to come in to work tonight, they've gotten all the work done...damn - it woulda been nice to get 8 hours of OT...but i suppose it wasn't meant to be. i feel like crap, coming down with a BITCH of a cold...i'm all stuffed up.

got the hospital bill today...the surgeon's bill arrived last week - $3k+...

my 3.5 days in St. Francis totaled $9584.64. Of that, I have to pay $27.75 - a bargain, i suppose! Thirteen grand plus for a little gall bladder - yowza!

the purity test's making the rounds again...so i took it...the results?

Congratulations! Your Purity score is 41%
The current average is 64%
The higher the number, the more pure you are; in the same vein, the lower the score, the more of a sleaze-bag you are.

hmm...need to work on lowering that score...*8-)

yearly evaluations tonight at work...urgh. don't think i have too much to worry about, but ya never know...

currently reading "Fast Food Nation: The Dark Side of the All-American Meal" - it certainly gives me pause before considering that next trip to mickey d's...

urgh...work SUCKS, can i just say that...office morale stands at a steady ZERO percent, and that's being generous. 't all started monday evening, when we got our packets for the new health insurance - since aetna bought out prudential (our current insurer) we'll be on the aetna plan effective 01-01-02. no more hmo, it's not even an option. besides our rates going up, the so-called "benefits" to this plan suck compared to what we have now. seeing the doc will cost $15, instead of $10, and a specialist will cost $20. but the thing that REALLY sucks is the mail-order prescription service. right now i can mail in a one month copay for an rx and get a three month supply - no more of that, we'll send in a two month copay and get a two month supply - where's the benefit there? hell, i'm better off just going month by month and getting the rx's filled at the drug store, since i have dosage changes and the like happening. there's also a $300 deductible that wasn't there before. it just majorly sucks, but what the hell can i do? i'm sure with all my preexisting conditions it'll be hard to get coverage anywhere else, but i don't really have time to check it out - we got the paperwork monday and they want it back friday...of course, this is our hell week, we're kind of busy with WORK and everything. arghhhh.

just woke up from what had to be the most bizarre dream i've had in a while...

i murdered someone with a dirty steak knife from mom's kitchen...except i don't really remember doing it - i was just accused of it and didn't seem to have an alibi, so i went along when some evil bitch (dunno who it was) said i was guilty and insisted on calling the cops...so the cops came (i was at some tupperware party-type event) and said they couldn't arrest me without one of the witnesses being there so i figured it was time to make my mad dash and get outta dodge...but someone was stealing my car (a gold lexus, btw) and i managed to grab a hold of the inside through the back window and the guy took off...so i'm hanging on for dear life and trying to get this guy to stop the car - ripped off his sunglasses, tried tickling him, tried hitting him...

and then i woke up.

i think america's getting back to it's old self - top two news headlines this evening? #1 - "Bin Laden surrounded?" - certainly a valid news story, deserving of the #1 spot...

and #2? "Winona Ryder arrested"...yup, back to the priorities, stuff that really matters to us americans - hey, shouldn't we be getting updates on gary condit and shark attacks on the east coast? poor winona...

can i just say...dr. english is so cool...it just blows me away that i can call at 1:30 on a friday afternoon and get an appointment for 4:10 that same day! previous doctors i've had would just laugh if ya tried something like that, even if ya just wanted to see a nurse practitioner...

so, the reason i called for an appointment is that i'm not feeling too good...do i have some sort of infection? my blood sugars are out of whack (yes, i have been taking all my meds!) and i was puking yesterday and i've had diarrhea - urgh! my top incision looks really weird - right now it appears to be oozing yellow-green stuff...the other 3 are healing up nicely though...

hungry? have a nice weiner!

stetmagazine.com bills itself as "the finest in cutting-edge fluff" - and i'd have to agree...check it out!

AWESOME! and oh so true...

If I were a work of art, I would be Salvador Dali's Persistence of Memory. I am a surreal landscape composed of several disjointed and bizarre components. I like to keep an eye on the time, although the very concept is fluid for me. People are never sure what they are seeing when they look at me. Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

i've learned something about myself tonight - i'm an old jewish lady...

for a couple of years now, saturday nights are generally reserved for mah jongg...go to mom's house and play with her and my bestest buds dale and greg...

mom got me a movie for my birthday that i had on my amazon.com wish list - Mah Jongg: The Tiles That Bind ...well, it finally arrived and i set it aside till we could all watch it together...we watched it tonight...and it was hysterical - looking at these groups of old jewish and chinese ladies and seeing that we're just like them! mah jongg has bound us together in ways that nothing else could...it's amazing, we sit around and play this game and eat and gossip and it's just wonderful...almost mystical, this connection we have when it comes to mah jongg...if we miss a week on occasion, i really miss it - i'd almost consider it an addiction. suppose i could be out cruising the bars for chicks on saturday nights, but no, i'd rather be at mom's playing with her and the gay boys...

slowly edging back to "normal" status - well, we can dream, can't we? i know i'll never be "normal", but i'm back to feeling among the living...

that said, now i have the sudden urge to go take a nap...*yawn*

feeling a lot better - i suspect being off the vicodin's helped with the nausea and such - sticking to tylenol for pain now...doc english says 2 weeks off is standard, so i'll be away from work till 17 december - just in time to go back to the Hell Week (TM) that is the week before xmas...of course, then we'll get most of xmas week off, then it'll be yet another Hell Week (TM) for New Year's...

global warming's been a topic of interest lately - primarily cuz it's december and we had temps in the 70's today! guess this will explain why it'll be snowing in may, eh? people think this warm weather now is wonderful - i'm dubious...it just ain't natural!

still recuperating...still nauseous/dizzy as all hell...i go see doc english on wednesday...not much else to report, since all i'm doing is lying down and recuperating...

oh, one thing i forgot to mention about the ultrasound - it turned me into a country music song...

i actually had 2 people doing the ultrasound, the first chick didn't really hurt me...but she couldn't find my "common bile duct" (guess it's an uncommon bile duct that i've got) and so she sent for another chick...the second chick is the one that pressed my oozing throbbing flesh into the cold hard table, reducing me to tears...oh, it hurt...i wasn't crying, but the tears were streaming down my face - since i was lying on my back, i ended up with "tears in my ears" - had to clean them out when i sat up!

so, the gall bladder thing...i'd been having mild throbbing pains in my upper right abdomen for a week, but monday night at work they just became horrendous - i left work early to go to the hospital. for some reason, i went to community hospital, the one near my house...they seem to have a differing view of "emergency", nobody was in a hurry to get anything done...so 45 minutes goes by before i get into a room...then a while passes before i see a doc...he says he wants pee and blood, so i give it to him...he comes back and says it's probably gall bladder, but can't be sure since they don't have an ultrasound at night - what the hell? 3+ hours in the er...so i head to mom's with my vicodin rx and sleep till i can call the doc's office. call the doc's office, they get me in at 1pm - doc tells me to go to st. francis south to get an ultrasound done. go to st. francis south and get the ultrasound (which hurt like a bitch! oh, you have pain here? lemme press harder!) and they tell me i have to go to the er at st. francis beech grove immediately, they're ready for me, and dr. mandelbaum will evaluate me for surgery there. momma takes me to st. francis and i ask for dr. mandelbaum and they ask which one - apparently there's two, they're brothers in the same practice - and i tell them doc english told me "dr. mandelbaum"...they find out it's jonathan and get me hooked up to the morphine pump and set up in a regular room. the surgery was scheduled for wednesday, the next day. in the meantime, i went from no liquids to a solid liquid diet - i tell ya, the jello/apple juice/chicken broth/raspberry popsicle combo was a four-course gourmet meal! until i puked it up, that is, then it was a rainbow - red jello, blue popsicle and i'm assuming bile (it was green) made for quite a color combo! mom had raved about the wonderfullness of the morphine pump - i thought it was okay, but i wasn't screaming its praises like mom did...

so, wednesday rolls around and i head to surgery in the afternoon...i remember being in the surgery room and having a gas mask put over my face...then nothing, till i was back in my room, screaming and writhing in pain. they kept telling me to stop and breathe, that it wouldn't hurt so much - i kept trying to catch my breath, but it hurt so much...i had to ask mom for a recap, since i was pretty fuzzy on the events...she told me the surgery took about 45 minutes and there were no complications. i woke up in excruiciating pain, and i had to pee...we buzzed the nurses 3 times before they came...it was more difficult getting out of bed than before the surgery because they'd hooked up these things on my legs, to prevent blood clots...so i had the two things hooked to my legs, an iv with two plugs, oxygen and a drain from my belly to contend with...once i peed, the pain lessened quite a bit...at some point, someone from work called - still not sure who it was...they asked how things went, and i told them it "hurt like a motherfucker" - right in front of my mother and the nurses!! all i remember was the pain - oh damn, it hurt!! but once i got back to sleep and woke up again, i was okay...still pretty sore, but much better...i stayed in the hospital through friday...doc mandelbaum had come in 6:30 friday morning and i said i didn't think i was ready to go home, but he said he thought i was, if my stats got better by the end of the day...i was too asleep to argue...so friday evening i got out and now i've just been hanging at mom's...i find if i sit up for too long, i get dizzy, or nauseous, or both...not sure if i'll be out of work one week or two, we'll see what the doc says...

it's world aids day...sad that we still have to have one. aids has been around far too long, i thought we'd have a cure by now. alas we don't. in honor of world aids day, we're asked to "link and think" - to take a moment and think about aids and maybe add a few links in our blog...

so here are some links:
lesbians & hiv
safersex.org - a journal of online safe sexuality
the NAMES project
the us department of health & human services

and the personal stories?

pastor jon was a close friend that died of aids. in the church, we didn't know he was gay, it was never mentioned. of course, all the signs were there, but we chose to be in denial or whatever. he was the leader of our youth group, and i worked with him quite a bit since i was the youth rep to the church board. it just blew me away - why him?!? he was such a good guy - why would GOD do such a thing to one of his servants, a man that devoted his life to Him? i think that was one of the major events that caused my agnosticism - if there is a god, why does he/she/it allow such horrible things to happen to good people?

i worked with indiana cares long ago, when they still existed, a separate entity from icaan...i worked with micheal breese in the stop aids project - we did "bar raids", going to gay bars in town with condom hats on our heads and smiles on our faces, passing out condoms, lube, gloves and safer sex info...it was a lot of fun, and it made the topic of safer sex easier to talk about...i wonder what micheal would say about us now if he were still alive? he'd be very disappointed, i think. all the in-fighting and crap - it disgusts me that this year's garage party raised 39,704.93 and only 4,738.45 ended up going to the cause. that's 8.4%!!! something is seriously wrong there...

i volunteered at parkview manor, a nursing facility for people with aids....no longer exists because the money isn't there for it...wonder where all those people went, how many of them are still around...*sigh*

more thoughts later...

oh, the er wasn't totally horrible - met a cute chick there *smirk*...the "room" i was in was really just one fourth of a room, enclosed by a curtain...not much privacy at all...well, the chick across from me was in cuz she had a terrible headache...then i heard her mention she was a patient of dr. mohan's (my neurologist) and that she was epileptic...when her doc left i made a comment about the lack of privacy and that i heard her mention dr. mohan and so we chatted quite a bit...her name's shirley, she works at wal-mart...got epilepsy and sleep apnea...she told me a bit about what to expect in the video eeg, tho hers was at community north and sounded pretty dreadful...she asked if i'd ever had dr. wallack and i told her it'd been 13 years and she told me he's still an asshole. *8-) then when she left she gave me a few coupons - a woman after my own heart! *8-) guess she has a connection at foot locker and these coupons are for 30% off - whoo hoo! i'm tempted to drop in at wal-mart sometime and look her up - kinda got that queer vibe, but there was a guy there with her...*shrug*

hmmm, think this vicodin's kicking in...

just got out of the emergency room - left work early cuz i was having pains from hell...my gut wasn't very happy with me - a rock-hard fist inside, just cramping and making me miserable...so i went to the er, peed in a cup, got needles stuck in a variety of places...doc said he thinks it's a gall bladder problem, but they don't have an ultrasound available to the night shift so i'll hafta check in with doc english...meanwhile, it's vicodin and clear liquids for me!

argh.

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is there such a thing as fate? what's in charge of what things go on? sometimes it just seems like there are too many coincidences for some things to just "happen" - something drives you to a certain time, place, event...*shrug*

i'm feeling really weird right now...was reading the indy star on the web and one of the cover stories is about crown hill cemetery, and how some tv show's filming there to show some of the historical stuff...so i drift off to the crown hill website. a few clicks, and i find that chuck avery has died, and will be buried there later today. i knew chuck from my days at the thrifty nickel - he was the circulation manager, and the only other queer that worked there. i knew his health wasn't good - last time i saw him he was just recovering from a stroke - but it's still a shock.

it just freaks me out - seems like i was lead to his obituary...i'm not the type of person that reads the obituaries (tho i did as a kid - finding how who the oldest and youngest people were, what people died from - all that macabre stuff fascinated me) so it just seems weird that i'd find this one.

cute - go to the random url site and it'll plug in a random word from its dictionary, add a .com to it and take ya to whatever site might happen...'tis amazing what's out there on the web...

hopefully momma's gonna get out of the hospital today...then she'll be off work another week...she's certainly making use of that short-term disability thang...

talked with her gastro doc yesterday, and he said what i pretty much already knew - adam should get checked for CF, but unless he comes back with a positive diagnosis, i probably don't need to be screened, since i don't exhibit any of the symptoms...

time to try to get some sleep since i have to work tonight...

alrighty, back to that survey:

4 things you would eat on the last day of your life:
oh sheesh, the last day of my life? hmmm....
a jamaican pizza from some guys pizza
mom's fried potatoes - major comfort food!
mac & cheese - the ultimate comfort food
ben & jerry's - either jerry's jubilee or cherry garcia

4 CDs from your collection that you will never get tired of:
stuck in the 90's, i guess...
his name is alive - home is in your head
trashcan sinatras - cake
james - laid
ani difranco - not a pretty girl

4 movies that you watch over and over:
dvds are a good thing...
the truth about cats & dogs
american beauty
as good as it gets
gia

4 vacations you have taken:
don't travel too much...
to colorado as a kid with "dad"...
a bifem gathering in kansas...
the big queer march on washington...
to rhode island to see a net.girlfriend...

4 songs you get stuck in your head frequently:
oh god, i don't even want to think about them, lest they get stuck again...
wiper blades - heywood banks
prisoner of love - from the bob & tom show
mahna mahna - from the muppet show
18 wheels on a big rig - heywood banks

4 things you'd like to learn:
urgh, if only i had the time and brain power...
sign language
html
a foreign language - spanish, perhaps?
computer programming stuff

4 beverages you drink frequently:
really, there's only one - i'm a dew addict!
diet mountain dew
diet air (from snapple)
diet a&w root beer
diet pepsi

4 TV shows that you liked when you were a kid:
yes, i'm a child of the 80's, and i'm also a game show addict
press your luck
sale of the century
the price is right
the people's court

4 places to go in your city:
okay, so i'm a bit strange, but crown hill is beautiful...
crown hill cemetery
the children's museum of indianapolis
out word bound bookstore
the indianapolis zoo

4 things to do when you're bored:
blog
sleep
shop
eat

4 things that never fail to cheer you up:
saturday night mah jongg
hanging out with my brothers and sister
great deals at the grocery store
a show at the ten

and your answers are.....????

amazing the twists and turns that can happen on a search for a company logo to go in an ad...i've found findagrave.com - there you can find out where a specific person's buried or see a list of people of note in specific cemeteries - ie Crown Hill ...

well shit, i guess i should get back to work...

i don't know which is worse - getting a song stuck in yer head or a movie quote...saw "as good as it gets" the other day, and good ol' melvin udall's (aka jack nicholson) stuck in my head..."People who talk in metaphors oughta shampoo my crotch." - a classic!

cute little survey i lifted from another blog:
(i'll hafta post my answers later)

4 things you would eat on the last day of your life:

4 CDs from your collection that you will never get tired of:

4 movies that you watch over and over:

4 vacations you have taken:

4 songs you get stuck in your head frequently:

4 things you'd like to learn:

4 beverages you drink frequently:

4 TV shows that you liked when you were a kid:

4 places to go in your city:

4 things to do when you're bored:

4 things that never fail to cheer you up:

alrighty, weird mood time...i obviously need some music to get me through this night of hell - aka work - but i dunno what sort of music i want to listen to...*ponder*

think it's gonna be one of my napster-lifted mixes...perhaps #14:

1. Dreams Are Of The Body His Name Is Alive
2. No Man's Woman Sinead O'Connor
3. Give It Everything Al Green
4. Wild Night John Mellencamp w/Meshell NdegeOcello
5. I Kissed A Girl Jill Sobule
6. The Sweater Meryn Cadell
7. Angel Mine Cowboy Junkies
8. Both Hands ani difranco
9. Wear Your Love Like Heaven Sarah McLachlan
10. Damn, I Wish I Was Your Lover Sophie B. Hawkins
11. Me Paula Cole
12. Left Of Center Suzanne Vega
13. 4 Men Kitchens Of Distinction
14. Pictures Of You The Cure
15. Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want The Smiths
16. Fade Into You Mazzy Star
17. Everything Possible The Flirtations
18. Mahna Mahna Mahna Mahna & The Two Snowths

aww fuck, i took the napster cd's outta my backpack...i'm left with some other stuff, the napster discs being at home i presume...urgh...guess it'll be his name is alive, stars on esp, to start off with...

argh...mom's in the hospital again...another bout of pancreatitis...dammit, i hate to see her in such pain - if i could trade places with her, i'd do it in a heartbeat...alas, i'm stuck here at work.

reading some new blogs this morning: instapundit, jonny5alivedotcom, judy's blog and dreaded purple master - why is it most of the blogs i seem to latch on to are written by those of the opposite sex?

hmmm, here's one to check out later - fontlover...

tis amazing all the interesting stuff in people's blogs...here's an interesting pic of NYC and Ground Zero...

i think i'm making this html stuff much harder than it is....

argh...frustration with doctors today...first off, dr. english...i'm not all that upset with her, i just wish she could get a magic wand and wave it and *POOF* all my bad things would disappear...ya know, i'm surprised the damned drug companies haven't come out with one to give out to all the docs, with their prominently placed logos on the handle or something...

so, anyways, she gave me a referral for a dietician - maybe she can help me figure out what i'm doing wrong...

then, this afternoon i called dr. mohan's office to see if i should've received something in the mail about monday's video eeg - ya know, like where to show up, what to bring, etc, etc - like the packet of stuff they sent me before my sleep study...julie told me she'd call me back in a few minutes, and she did - to tell me the equipment in the hospital is broken and they have to reschedule my eeg for december 3rd. oh, so i ask to reschedule it and they can't possibly squeeze me in until late january, but now there's magically appeared a space for me on december 3? at least i found out before the fact - had i shown up at the hospital on monday at 7:30am only to find out it'd be postponed, i'd have been majorly shitty....

my head's still screwy - my attention span is for shit and i keep forgetting if i've printed and/or eps'd stuff...urgh......

ever got the urge to ask the Magic 8-ball a question? now ya can do it on the web!

brain break...it seems i need one, as i'm having a hard time here at work...my brain doesn't seem to want to be here...right now, my short-term memory is for shit...i'll open up a folder and then forget what it was i was looking for or what i was going to do...*shrug*...

kim's talked to us about the holiday schedules and i'm just baffled - they're more fucked up this year because of what day they fall on, etc etc, and i'm just foggy in the head anyways, so that's not helping either...i told her i needed her to write it down for me - perhaps it'll make more sense that way.

what the fuck is wrong with me?!?!? is there a seizure coming? i don't know...i just know i feel really weird and i don't want to be here - i don't want to be anywhere...not saying i want to be dead or anything, i just hate feeling this weirdness coming over me...*sigh*

argh...trying to figure out the blogback thang...still trying to figure out how to make the (comment) thang actually visible on the page - the blue blends in with the blue of the background...i've updated to version 1.3, so it should actually work now, as long as ya know the damned thing's there. *8-) feel free to comment away!!

damn....i can't reschedule my video eeg so that i can work next week, unless i want to wait till january...argh...so now i'll be getting fucked outta the increasingly scarce overtime work...*8-(

doc's office just called - my TSH level was normal...alrighty, so there must be something _else_ going on, other than a thyroid problem...

urgh, this is just so fucking annoying.

there's one species out there in which the females are DEFINITELY the weaker sex...(or more annoying, at least)...

ginko trees....

mom's got a ginko in her front yard...it's a female...apparently, it's the females that bear fruit...these grape-sized fruits fall from the tree and proceed to rot, making a huge stink in the process...not to mention the uncomfortable sensations invoked when stepping on the little fuckers! apparently, we can use Fruit Eliminator - a type of birth control for fruit trees - to stop it from bearing fruit, but ya have to apply it in the springtime and we found out about it too late for this year...

there is a good side though - it's a beautiful tree, and in the fall, the leaves are a blazing yellow...most of the leaves fall at one time - it happened last weekend...it's a beautiful sight...mom says it looks like it's raining corn flakes...

if only those damned fruits weren't causing such a stink...

well, the gayindy hornet's nest settled back down rather quickly...never did get a reply from wally though...*shrug*

got email from christine today - at the last pitch-in several of us mentioned wanting to go to the harry potter movie, so it looks like about 20 of us will be going on opening night, in two weeks...*8-)

robin dyed my hair for me again - we had our semi-regular bitch-fest about work and associated co-workers...she's got two new kittens - they're sooo cute! melissa & clare and cheryl & jen & sierra stopped by to check out the kitties as well....i hung out and had dinner with robin & kerry - they make their jambalaya with steak and sausage - different, but really good! shrimp woulda been nice, but kerry doesn't care much for those bottom-feeders, he's a red meat man...

so, i've been having this seafood craving...i just called dale to see if he and greg would like to go out for crab legs...seems they probably can't make it over here by dinner time - they're in New Orleans!! duh....lucky for them they'll be back here for mah jongg tomorrow nite though - if not, i'd hafta kill them...

woo hoo - my babysmasher stickers arrived!

oh shit....i've stirred up a major hornet's nest on the gayindy list...i suppose i was a bit grumpier than i shoulda been when i posted my reply to wally's message, so i was a bit more hateful than i usually am, but i still don't think i'd take back anything i said...even though people on the list have voiced angry messages, i've gotten messages off-list thanking me for what i said...

wally has posted the following to the gayindy list, and i'm debating sending a reply either to him personally or to the list as a whole:

Answering Machine Message for the Mental Health Institute

Hello, and welcome to the Mental Health Hotline.
If you are obsessive or compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependant, please ask someone to press 2 for you.
If you have multiple personalities, please press 3,4,5 and 6
If you are paranoid, we already know who you are, but stay on
the line while we trace your call.
If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be
transferred to the mother ship.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice
will tell you which number to press.
If you have short term memory loss, press 9, if you have short
term memory loss, press 9, if you have short term memory loss,
press 9.
If you have low self esteem, please hang up. All our operators
are too busy to talk to you.

-- alrighty, sending this to a friend that knows your sense of humor is one thing, but to a list of queers that may or may not have these issues? not cool. it makes him look like a major dickhead, in my not so humble opinion...mentally, i'm pretty stable (for the most part - i think) but i have been having these memory problems lately, and it just bugged me...(not to mention spelling co-dependent wrong *smirk*) so, how do i go about replying without looking like a major lunatic? *ponder*

amazing how those day-dwellers don't stop and think about us nighttime peeps...it's kinda hard to sleep when the damned neighbors are using chainsaws to cut down a tree in their yard...ugh, couldn't they at least do it on one of my days off, when daytime sleep isn't mandatory?

oh well, i had to get up and go get bloodwork done anyways...but getting back to sleep will be a bitch...*groan* *moan* *whine*

whoo hoo hoo....the first season of queer as folk (the us version) is gonna be out on dvd in january...i've already pre-ordered it from amazon.com...hopefully season 2 will continue the trend they had of each episode being better than the ones previous...yeah, there are problems with the show, but i think what it really boils down to is that these are very realistic characters and some of them aren't very likeable - brian's an asshole, but ya know what, there are quite a few guys out there like him...and i know there's been a consistent gripe from some of the lesbo communities out there about the fact that there's only 2 lesbos on the show, but i really don't have a problem with that...my problem was with the fact that the token lesbos in the show were so 2-dimensional...and that certainly changed as the season went on...regardless of all the criticism, i think it's a very realistic show, a funny show, and one that can really tug at the ol' heartstrings...

awww shit....ya know, i think that webmd does more harm than good sometimes....ya hear about something that might be wrong with ya, ya look up the symptoms on the website, then *BAM!* ya have a new disease, freshly diagnosed via the world wide web...now it looks like i've got graves disease....the most common cause of hyperthyroidism...i'm just a fucking mess...of course, i KNOW i don't really have it, haven't gotten the blood work done yet and all, but it'll still sit there, in the back of my head, picking away....

another weekend rapidly comes to an end...urgh...

mom and i saw K-PAX on friday - pretty good movie, though it was different than what i expected...kevin spacey is so freakin cool...

still unsure of the whole brain surgery thing - i wish november 12 would hurry and get here so we could get this video eeg done...

i also need to get some blood work done for dr. e - seems my thyroid is a bit overactive...one more thing to throw into the mix, i guess...it'd be great if there was just one pill i could take to cure all of what ails me, but i suppose that's asking for a bit much...

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i've been going through a little upsurge in ebay purchases recently....today a dvd arrived - the opposite of sex...what an awesome movie...the tagline's appropriate: You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll be offended.

also got a good deal on an auction yesterday - 4 His Name Is Alive CD's for ten bucks!

now if i could just get that skank that walked off with my fifteen bucks to answer and let me know why she's not sent my mahjongg tiles...i suppose i've been pretty lucky, only one bad auction in all my years of ebaying...

well, the epilepsy foundation says that surgery could cost $35,000 to more than $150,000 and that in a lobectomy (which i'm presuming is the type of surgery the doc is talking about) 65 to 85% of patients turn out seizure-free. complications occur in about 4 out of every 100 of these operations - is it worth taking a 1 in 25 chance? partial loss of vision, motor ability, memory or speech could happen because of the surgery?

the scariest thought for me is that something would happen and i would lose myself after the surgery - just become a different person. that seems like too much of a risk to take...

appointment with the neurologist today....he wants me to consider surgery....SURGERY?!?!? you want to carve into my brain and cut out the scar tissue in my left temporal lobe? eeek! i asked him if the relatively low number of seizures i had justified it - he says it would eliminate the absence seizures as well, not just the convulsive ones....hmmm, maybe it would be worth it. *shrug* we'll see what the video EEG says in november, and then go from there....

okay, now i just gotta figure out how to change the color of the (comment) line above my posts so that it doesn't blend in with the backgrounds...

gonna try to put in BlogBack - that way ya'll can post replies to my msgs, if you're so inclined....

this site CRACKED ME UP! airtoons.com has parodies of airline in-flight safety cards, with accompanying illustrations...

cute little website - word-detective.com - got lots of origins of weird words and phrases...one that particularly amused me was the article on mondegreens - phrases and/or lyrics that are misheard - one that absolutely drives me UP THE WALL is when people say/write "for all intensive purposes" - it's "for all intents and purposes"!!! the article mentions a classic hymn - "Gladly the Cross-Eyed Bear" *rofl* sounds like a GREAT cartoon, if i do say so myself...

of course, the ultimate source of mondegreens is the book "'scuse me while i kiss this guy" and it's sequels - there's even a website now...

another cool link i've found this evening was to the straight dope...sheesh, i love trivial information!!

ugh...had a seizure tuesday afternoon, while i was asleep....called in to work, but ended up coming in a few hours later - i don't have the PTO to take the day off, so i might as well be here, even if we're way ahead of schedule. my head still hurts like a motherfucker, i guess it was a pretty intense seizure...

hahahaha - here's a nice little stencil of Osama bin Laden for ya to decorate a jack o'lantern and then destroy at your will....haven't yet found that ass-kicking stencil that i must use in the pumpkin-carving activities this weekend, but there's still time....

hahahaha - love that seizure humor! don't forget, with an epileptic around, there's always a whole lotta shakin goin on!

bleargh...i had a few things i've been meaning to blog about, but now i'm drawing a blank...

the pitch-in tonight was cool...christine, angela and julie went all the way on their costumes - christine as harry potter, angela as herminone (sp?) and julie as prof. dumebledore (now i KNOW i spelled that one wrong!) - alas i was too whipped from making treats to dress up as the Nimbus 2000 - 'twas a good idea tho. other cute costumes included: a brick (which had a "need a bricklayer" sign on it), cruella deville and a dalmatian, and more that aren't coming to mind right now - perhaps i'll put pics up on my website...*8-)

karen was there - haven't seen her in ages...she was rather cool (that's cool as in "reserved", not "spiffy"), so i didn't say much to her....she was there with amy hoosier, tho they're just friends...hung with steph and tonya quite a bit...later on i talked a bit with mimi - she's so cool....gave her my card, with my email on it - turns out she loves ebay and the doughboy too!...she's got sugar gliders...never heard of 'em, but hearing her talk about 'em they sound pretty cool...little marsupial thangs...i suspect clara knows about 'em, cuz someone had mentioned seeing them at a reptile show...

ugh...clara....i need to email her....got some way cool b-day presents from her in the mail today - lots of candles...these'll be great replacements for the ones i broke when i trashed the house during my seizure....

so, back to the pitch-in....sounds like a bunch of us will be going to see the harry potter movie together, should be cool...i think mimi's really cool, but i'd be scared to ask her out...*shrug* who knows...

weird dreams yesterday - i'm all excited because i got some shiny new quarters as change for something (can't remember where i was)...so i look at the things and turn them to the tails side to see what state they represent and the GRIM REAPER is on them...huh?!?!? not a clue what that one means - what state is the grim reaper from?...then there was one about being at the grocery store (i think it was the old preston-safeway at 38th & shadeland) and i put money in the pop machine and hit the diet mountain dew button and like 8 cans popped out...some were sprite, some were orange soda...so i was hording them, trying to find more change to get more of this 8 for the price of 1 deal and someone came along and started stealing my drinks - hiding them underneath a car in the parking lot...well the car ran over them and i got into a shouting match with the chick that did it...dunno what that one was about either...

being a game show lover, i've found a very good site to visit: Game $how Central -...interesting reading about michael larsen - he figured out the pattern to the not-so-random flashing lights and screw PYL for $110 grand...unfortunately, it's been banned from telecast and it's not like i had the vcr taping it in 1984...bill murray's slated to play michael larsen in a movie about it...

press your luck was one of my fave game shows...$ale of the century was also a fave - buy a brand new cadillac for $300 - hell yeah!...and of course, supermarket sweep - wow, to be able to just run through the grocery store and get whatever you want - whooo!

quote of the day:

"I love cable. I LOVE cable. I love it so much. I can't stop watching cable just to do my homework." - paige

ahhh, what a sister...*8-)

brain break. *yawn* for some reason i didn't get good sleep last night - i just feel like i've been through the wringer for some reason...*shrug*

pondering the whole halloween thing - don't have to worry about oct 31, since i'll be here at work, but i've been invited to a few parties and such...the next pitch-in's at christine's and will have a halloween theme...at games night several people mentioned being characters from the Harry Potter books...having not read any, i couldn't offer any opinions...i borrowed the first book from Donna and am halfway through it...no character is screaming my name thus far, tho i've thought it might be cute to be harry's broomstick, the Nimbus 2000 - perhaps some of those lesbos would like to hop on and take a ride...*8-)

break's over...back to work...

so, in my attempt to join the 21st century, i've been working on a webpage...nothing major yet, just a little tripod page...i don't have the patience for html - why the fuck does it take so much work to just do a little something? but maybe i'll learn the shit eventually...

oh crap...seems someone's stolen some of mom's checks - she found this out when her bank balance was inexplicably low and found a mysterious $400 check cashed. it's all too freakin weird...seems justin might know the guys that did it, but mom (and i) don't think justin had anything to do with it...the fact that this guy was in mom's house and went into her bedroom and stole these checks is just creepy...i've been trying to keep her calm about the situation - as i told her, i know EXACTLY what she's going through - the complete and utter confusion, the creepy feelings...i went through it all when kris stole my bankcard...so mom talked with the credit union today, they've given her all the paperwork and she stopped payment on the rest of the missing checks...she got on the internet and got the addresses of the guys that signed the check...oh, how tempted i would be to just go knocking on their door, but it's best to just let the cops take care of it...

kim needs:
(a) some sleep
(b) her ears cleaned
(c) some good drugs
(d) all of the above...

yuppers, 4:30 am can get pretty damned squirrely around here sometimes...i made some smart-ass comment (who? me?!?!?) and finished off with "can i get a witness?"...that's not what kim heard though...she freaked...apparently she heard "can i get a whippin'?"

*rofl*

hmm, perhaps i'll use that sometime...

anyone wishing to purchase a belated b-day present for me can visit my wish list at amazon.com...*8-)

had a nice birthday yesterday....mom and pooky took me to buca di beppo for lunch - oh my god we had soooooooo much food! had the baked rigatoni special and chicken cacciatore (whoo hooo, i spelled it right on the first try!!!!!!)...

buca's a "family style southern italian" restaurant, so the dishes are huge and meant to be shared - two entrees is easily enough for 7 or 8 people, so we had buttloads of leftovers...next time i'm gonna make sure to leave room for dessert!

turns out pooky's gonna get the saturn from circle city, the place he didn't even want to go to in the first place! *8-) maybe i should look into getting a car soon - the toyota's almost paid off and it seems now's the time to get a car, what with all the dealerships having really soft sales and offering really good financing rates...but damn, it's nice only having a $135 car payment...yeah, the car ain't too pretty, but the bitch gets 30-35mpg and hasn't had any major problems with it...*shrug*