not gonna say it...

i've determined that i'm NEVER EVER again going to say "sheesh, things can't possibly get worse!" because i'm continually proving that wrong.

it's bad enough my mom's got cancer and 1-3 months left as a prognosis...my cousin joanie was in the ER last night and was diagnosed with a pseudotumor behind her eye - holy crap! the neurologist she saw today thinks it's treatable, but still, the combination of head and tumor is NOT good.

*sigh*

fark's a godsend...

nothing like fark.com to take your mind off real life...it can take you all over some scary corners of the internet...for instance, until this fark thread about mapping sex offenders in your community, i didn't know a thing about Ohio sex offender Brian Peppers - farker Vin Diesel showed me this page featuring photoshops of the guy...and Brian Peppers even has a page on Snopes about him...so of course i hafta check out recent postings to Snopes while i'm there, and read this link about an advice column story of a boy and his searching out "camel toads", which of course ends up sending me to The Camel-Toe Report...

sigh...

momma's still in the hospital, they moved her to the Transitional Care floor this evening...she's not well enough to go home, she needs to get some more physical therapy. her final radiation treatment is tomorrow as well.

we spoke to her oncologist this morning, and i asked that question that everyone wants the answer to but nobody wants to ask: "How long's she got?" 4 to 6 weeks was the initial diagnosis, but then she said 1 to 3 months - FUCK. i knew things were bad, but still....

the cancer that she's got in her brain cannot be treated with chemo, and radiation will only lessen it for a bit - it can't be eliminated. so we go through the course of radiation and hope for the best. chemo for the lung cancer is not going to do anything but wear her down all the more - the bad crap she's going through is from the cancer in her brain, not her lung.

this royally sucks.