lalalalala...

yesterday was certainly interesting - left group early cuz the klonopin was kicking my ass, went home and slept, then went over to kat's...had to give her her bday presents early before she went out and bought em (stuff she needs for the new apt - a microwave and teakettle - woo hoo!)...fixed her a birthday dinner (her pick - steak, corn on the cob, shells & cheese)...then john came over, helped assemble some of her furniture, and then we all had a few cocktails...and then i had a few more - can't remember the last time i was that drunk. more interesting things occurred, but i'll refrain from discussing those here...*8-)

killed the website...

it was about a year ago that i reserved seizureopportunities.com as the domain for my website - the intention being to provide lots of info on the Vagus Nerve Stimulator and my interactions with it. alas, my lack of html skills combined with my lack of patience and time meant that nothing other than a front page ever got done with it. got a notice that the domain was up for renewal and have decided to give it up - paying the $6.95/mo just to keep the front page up and running isn't a luxury i can afford these days...

the weekend...

...is going alrighty, i suppose. tons of laundry done yesterday, a few errands run, yadda yadda yadda...

"dad" called yesterday - strangest conversation i've had with him, i think...he asked how i was doing, and i fessed up - "i'm in a Partial Hospitalization Program and am getting help for depression and anxiety"...hadn't mentioned that when he called a couple of weeks ago (sheesh, can't believe i've been in PHP for 3 weeks now!)...the part where it gets really weird is when he asked "what can i do?" - huh? what? it's been 20 years or so since you've acted like a father and now you're gonna give it a try?!? told him about not having money to pay my bills, he said he'd see what he could manage and send it my way. i'm not holding my breath waiting for that check, but i guess it could happen. then he asked if i wanted to come out and see him - i'd been a bit irked that several months ago he had told me about having matt & paige (my half siblings) come out to see him this summer, but a similar offer wasn't made to me or adam, so to hear that from him was a bit strange...he just didn't sound like the same ol' asshole...hell, maybe he feels guilty...*shrug* is he just trying to rack up some points before father's day? i mentioned that to mom and she said that it's sad that that's the first thing i think of when trying to figure out his intentions, but that it's understandable...people can change, i suppose, but based on his previous history, i'm not holding my breath...