well, i've put a dent in the resale value on my car - literally. out shopping for greg's b-day and running errands and it started pouring down rain. the stoplight at southport & madison was out - am i the only person in indy that knows you're supposed to treat that situation as a 4-way stop? so, i managed to get through that intersection and was going along southport rd when the light at shelby turned red. there were 3 or 4 cars at the stop, i put on the brakes, but the road was wet and i just skidded along....*BAM!*...plowed into the back of a guy...i had tried to get into the turn lane, since there was no one there, but steering was for naught. so i just hit the corner of his car....he pulled up and turned on to shelby - at first i thought he was leaving, cuz he was going pretty fast...but he pulled over and got out and looked at his car...just a bit of a scratch on his back bumper - my car was another story. i asked if he wanted me to call the cops...he told me not to worry about it, it was just a $50 car he drove around. *whew!* so at least i don't have to worry about it fucking up my insurance or anything.

the totally weird thing about it? i had dido in the CD player, and was listening to track #9 - "Slide" and she's belting out "don't sliiiiiiiiiide!" when i plowed into the guy...

now i've got a headache and i'm tired and cranky and ARGH!

met with deb last night, to explain to her that i hadn't dropped off the face of the earth and that i still wanted to be involved with switchboard. i'd forgotten about her whole psych background - she was very...what's the word i want?...not touchy-feely, but a bit more understanding and concerned than other people might be...

so, due to lack of volunteers and such, they're cutting back the switchboard from 7 nights a week to fri-sat-sun...i told her that sucked for me cuz thursday was the night i typically did it - it had worked out for me cuz i'd do switchboard thursday, whatever on friday and mah jongg on saturday...she said she also did thursdays...so, we might do thu-fri-sat-sun now...i need to see how the IYG thing goes, if they're gonna schedule me for specific thursdays or what...

doc english told me what i already knew - i need to get my ass to the neurologist...er, my brain, actually...i didn't know, however, that it could be any one of 'em - so i'll reschedule tomorrow and hopefully get in before mid-september...went and had a tegretol level drawn at the lab - doc said she might get the results tomorrow...seems weird i'd have this seizure now, when i've been better lately at taking my meds than at any point previously...*shrug*

i *FINALLY* finished unloading all the groceries from the HUGE trip to K-roger....because we made the requisite purchases during the month prior, we got a 20% discount on all the groceries we bought this trip. so i had all my coupons and rainchecks ready to go...spent $110, saved $298+ - yeah, i got four hundred bucks worth of groceries for a hundred bucks! it was probably closer to five hundred, cuz Amanda the Kroger Cashier Goddess didn't have to scan half the shit i got that was BOGOF on the rainchecks....ahhhh, BOGOF - think that's my favorite acronym...Buy One Get One Free...had so much shit i filled TWO grocery carts...amanda's totally cool - am i a complete freak for having a crush on the cashier? at first my gaydar was saying "DYKE" but she mentioned she recently got married - to a man. damn. maybe she swings both ways...*smirk* i just have to wonder though - she's a hell of a lot nicer to me than any other customers...

so, i got lots of shit that i'll be able to donate to the Julian Center - i set up a donation drive at work...not quite sure what possessed me to do it, not like i'm a battered wife or anything, but hey, it hit some nerve inside me...so i'll be responsible for collecting donations that my co-workers bring in, from food to clothing and baby items...

got "high art" on dvd....had to get it through ebay - it's not available in the US...apparently this one's from Taiwan...wow, now i can turn on the subtitles and brush up on my Chinese...it's such a freakin' awesome movie - i don't know specifically what it is about it that has touched me, but i just really really like this movie...

got to get some sleep....doc appt in the afternoon, then meeting up with debbie tomorrow night to catch up on things...

funny stuff...

the night crew has determined my nationality - i'm Lesbonian. or is it Lesbonian-American? *8-)

this came about because we were talking about the theory that if you're right handed, your right breast is larger than your left, if you're left handed, yer left breast is larger...

so somebody brought up the idea that if they're the same size, they must be artificially enhanced....donna asked how you could tell if boobs were fake and i answered - "they taste different..." well, she just totally freaked when i said that...it was funny as hell...

ya know, we have discussions like this in our department and just this week they reposted the sexual harassment policy on the board - coincidence?

"You need to listen to your body, because your body listens to you." - words of wisdom from Dr. Phil...

so, now just what in the HELL is my body saying to me?!?

*yawn* well, my eyes are open and i'm out of bed, but i don't know that i'm really awake yet....i fell asleep this morning, so i didn't get to call in to the doc's office...i'll shoot for getting in there on thursday...this is the disadvantage to my work schedule - trying to get anything done M-W is a major pain in the ass...

CSG can suck my dick! not a clue who she/he is - CSG is the initials of some freak of a salesperson in Nashville, but her/his ad layouts are for SHIT! Illegible, incoherent, and annoying as hell - and ya just know this is the first person to bitch that her/his ads are fucked up! argh!!

emily pitt called me! unfortunately, i had to be stuck here at work, but we still managed to have a nice conversation...what a hottie...too bad she's not on bifem any more...i was really looking forward to seeing her in rhode island this weekend...but my brain had other plans, i guess *pout*...sounds like she's doing very well in boston...perhaps i'll catch up with her at Michigan next year - it's something i've always been meaning to do, but have yet to do it...

so i gave clara the address to my blog...and she replied with an email...sometimes it's unnerving, just how right she is...*8-) i suppose some of my freakish dreams of late are epilepsy related, and some are mom related. there has been some added pressure on me lately, since mom broke her foot on the sidewalk in front of my neighbor's - she wouldn't have done it had she not been coming over here to take my ass to the hospital...i'm really good at that GUILT emotion....

amazing the weirdness the web contains: http://www.babysmasher.com

'tis that weird time of night - 1:30, sunday night - technically monday morning...having just gotten home from work an hour ago, i'm sorely tempted to take a nap, but i know better than that, for it'll totally fuck up my schedule...i need to stay up till morning and then sleep all day before going to work at 7pm monday night...sometimes i don't like the weird schedule i work, but for the most part, i really do like it - 3.5 day weekends are cool. almost seems like it would be impossible to go to a 5-day, 9-to-5 job...but would that be better for my brain? is this work schedule part of the problem when it comes to my seizures? wish i knew just what it was that caused this last seizure - it was so much different than ones before. is it even related? and to cause such personality changes in me, for such an extended period of time - just what in the hell is going on? been having really weird dreams lately too - is it related? dreams of fighting with mom - mean, nasty, horrible, hateful fights....or the dream of sleeping and waking up to find i'm lying on pieces of broken glass - i throw them away, only to find more re-appear....is the dream related to my continually cleaning up the broken glass from my trashing my apartment during my seizure? sheesh, i can't even begin to count how many candles and decorations i broke - slivers of glass all over, and just when i think i've swept it all up, i'll find more. so many questions in my mind, about my mind...

Glucophage, Actos, Tegretol XR, Zoloft, Zocor, Naproxen, Ortho-Novum, Minocycline HCL, Noritate, Ocuvite Lutein - i'm a fucking pharmacy. 10 pills in the morning, 5 pills at night, and a cream to apply at bedtime. diabetes, epilepsy, carpal tunnel, polycystic ovary syndrome, depression, high cholesterol, roseacea, crappy eyesight, and who knows what the fuck else is wrong with me. being sick sucks. the seizure i had july 28 has very obviously fucked me up, to the point that i'm still not over it. it's changed me, i'm a different person. they've told me here at work that i'm different - kim's comparing me to neal, saying i'm always bitching about work, that it seems as though i hate my job. i don't hate my job, i've just found that lately my temper is for shit, i don't have the patience to deal with all the fuckups we continually fix...i must get to the doctor to get this shit figured out.

whoo hoo! chinese food for dinner means it's fortune cookie time! "You have a quiet and unobtrusive nature." Yeah. Uh huh. Yuppers. That's me, all right!

whoo hoo! nothing like a nice little nervous breakdown to start off the work week! my brain is doing some seriously fucked up things - my memory is shot to hell. pretty bad when you can't remember how long you've worked at a place, or where the hell the startup button is to freehand on the computer. i've been here 3+ years, for christ's sake! gonna have to bump up my appointment with the neurologist - i've got to figure out what in the hell is wrong with me.

whoo hoo! a night of Dale Bondage comes to a close...an early evening, i suppose - back in the olden days we closed the bars down and were still dancing...getting old sucks. *sigh* oh well...evening went as i suspected - first dinner at Some Guys, then off to see the show at the Ten, then off to dance at Utopia...i figured i'd see some pitch-in/games night chicks at utopia, but i only saw one - Laura...i was getting pretty nostalgic as the night wore on - why can't things be like they were in the old days? *shrug*