painfully true lyric of the moment...

"...it's a hard road when you know where you're going
and it's harder when you know where you're not..."

- "the best man's fall", trashcan sinatras

haven't done this in a long time...

i actually went out and bought a new CD today...actually, a CD/DVD set - the limited edition of Everything to Everyone by Barenaked Ladies...

so i'm listening to it here at work...first impression? makes me wanna go out to the car and get Maybe You Should Drive, my favorite BNL disc - but then again, when i first heard Maybe..., i didn't like it at all, now i like it even more than Gordon, which i thought could never be topped...

pretty sad that the number of CDs i've bought this year could probably be counted on both hands, if not just one - and it's not got a damned thing to do with Kazaa - there just hasn't been anything out there calling my name. got annie lennox's latest, but that didn't do much for me - i've just been sticking with the old faves...lately it's been Home Is In Your Head by His Name Is Alive, Walking Wounded by Everything But The Girl and a few mixes i've made...

BNL will be at the Murat on November 2 - a Sunday...question is, will that still be a work night for me?

what was she thinking?

i went to see the shrink last week...while in the waiting room, a woman walked in - bleeding from her wrist - asking to talk to her doctor...i sat there, speechless...all i could think was "what was she thinking when she did that? what makes a person feel THAT bad to sit there and cut yourself open like that?"

after the past two days, i think i can relate. i know slashing your wrists isn't a serious attempt at suicide, it's a cry for help, but dammit, i'm so frustrated right now, doing something to move the pain from psychological to physical almost sounds normal.