okay, i guess my sleep schedule is now COMPLETELY fucked up - i get tired, i take a nap, nap ends up being 7 hours long so then i don't sleep for a long time, then sleep for a little bit...whatever. just totally fucked up - not like my normal schedule (which "normal" people consider to be fucked up) and not like the schedule of the aforementioned "normal" people either...

i wish i could remember more details to the seizure i had xmas night - still dealing with the after-effects of it, i think...i remember lying down in bed, the next thing i remember is waking up on the couch, the back of my head just hurting like a bitch. what the hell did i bang it on?!? it STILL hurts, a week later - i suspect i got some sort of concussion. dunno if i need to go to the doc at this point or not - i'd think so, since a bump on the head shouldn't hurt this freakin long...

on the epilepsy issue, i'm reading a book from the library, living well with epilepsy, and it brought up an interesting point regarding epileptics and driving - it's totally discriminatory the laws that some states have regarding suspension and revocation of licenses for epileptics. "If suspensions are in the interest of public safety, as some claim, why aren't the same restrictions placed on people who have had a heart attack or a stroke? Why should we be singled out? Why should we be denied the right to drive? Why should we be forced to surrender our driver's licenses? I'll tell you why. It is because there is a residual stigma to epilepsy..."

maybe it wouldn't be such an issue for me if i didn't live in indianapolis. but the fact is, the public transportation in this city SUCKS. big time. if i could hop on a bus and go to work, i'd do it, even if it took longer to get there - and i have done that in the past. but since the trader office is now in fishers, it's not even a possibility. there's been discussion of a light rail system being developed and that would definitely solve the problem for me - but they're looking at just widening highways instead. i wish i didn't have to rely on my car so much to get around this town, but that's the way it is. why don't we focus on the light rail idea and then perhaps we wouldn't need to widen every fricking highway in town to make room for a car for each and every person that lives here?