Father's Day this year was different - i mailed a present off to Dad for the first time in i don't know how long. i guess i had thought about it and realized this past year that he'd acted more like a father than he had in a long time - particularly after Mom's death. even though i didn't want him around, he travelled from Colorado and sincerely (dad? sincere?) seemed to only want to be there to support his kids (psychologically, at least) so i guess that merited a present. *shrug*
another difference was that i didn't have Mom around - in years past i would make a point to give a Father's Day present to her in recognition of her being there more for me as more than just Mom, she'd served the role as both parents an awful lot. so i went to the cemetery yesterday and hung out for a little bit.
dammit, i really miss her.
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