i'm a godmother!!!

today was the baptism of my godson Dominic (as well as his brother Atreyu and sisters Alanis and Alivia) and so it's now official, i'm a fairy godmother! ;-)

yeah, i've joked with everyone about the fairy godmother thing, what with my lesbo status automatically adding the FAIRY to my godmother title, but i do take the responsibilities very seriously. i am going to be there for Dominic, to guide him and teach him the ways of being a good person. and while my faith has waxed and waned over the years, be it religious or agnostic or atheistic, i feel that it doesn't matter what a person's beliefs are, as long as there's a mutual agreement to support and guide my godson in leading a good life, and i'm going to be there for him, no doubt.

dametri was there in spirit as well, i just wish he could've been there in person to join in the festivities.

not gonna say it...

i've determined that i'm NEVER EVER again going to say "sheesh, things can't possibly get worse!" because i'm continually proving that wrong.

it's bad enough my mom's got cancer and 1-3 months left as a prognosis...my cousin joanie was in the ER last night and was diagnosed with a pseudotumor behind her eye - holy crap! the neurologist she saw today thinks it's treatable, but still, the combination of head and tumor is NOT good.

*sigh*

fark's a godsend...

nothing like fark.com to take your mind off real life...it can take you all over some scary corners of the internet...for instance, until this fark thread about mapping sex offenders in your community, i didn't know a thing about Ohio sex offender Brian Peppers - farker Vin Diesel showed me this page featuring photoshops of the guy...and Brian Peppers even has a page on Snopes about him...so of course i hafta check out recent postings to Snopes while i'm there, and read this link about an advice column story of a boy and his searching out "camel toads", which of course ends up sending me to The Camel-Toe Report...

sigh...

momma's still in the hospital, they moved her to the Transitional Care floor this evening...she's not well enough to go home, she needs to get some more physical therapy. her final radiation treatment is tomorrow as well.

we spoke to her oncologist this morning, and i asked that question that everyone wants the answer to but nobody wants to ask: "How long's she got?" 4 to 6 weeks was the initial diagnosis, but then she said 1 to 3 months - FUCK. i knew things were bad, but still....

the cancer that she's got in her brain cannot be treated with chemo, and radiation will only lessen it for a bit - it can't be eliminated. so we go through the course of radiation and hope for the best. chemo for the lung cancer is not going to do anything but wear her down all the more - the bad crap she's going through is from the cancer in her brain, not her lung.

this royally sucks.

Let It Out...

Let It Out's always good for a laugh...since i've been offline, i wasn't able to read the snarky comments from fellow Hoosiers...a few that i just caught up with:

The quicker I fall behind, the more time I have to catch up!

I weigh a lot less in metric.

I hate to admit when I'm wrong, so I don't.

If everybody in the world is weird but you, wouldn't you be the weird one?

another sigh...

no posts for a long time cuz the internet got cut off - paying the bills is a new responsibility i've assumed. problem is the gaping holes in mom's filing system - can't really pay the bills if i don't know they exist, and i don't know what's set up for automatic bill pay or whatever. at least i know the mortgage is paid, the electricty is too, and we've got internet - guess i don't hafta worry about anything else, right? har har har, dare to dream...

momma's in the hospital yet again - had to take her to the ER yesterday because of some abdominal pain, and her complete lack of strength. she's having bowel problems now. i think she needs to stay in the hospital until her radiation treatments are completely done, because as it is we're missing treatments and dragging things out longer and longer. if she can stay in the hospital and get through these last 3 or 4 treatments, perhaps she'll get a bit stronger once they're done so that we can get ready for chemo - and who the hell knows what sort of consequences that stuff will have on her.

sigh...

this whole week's just been a flash...seizures at the beginning of the week had me in the hospital...now momma has taken it upon herself to be the one in the hospital - a urinary tract infection, combined with the radiation she's going through has just completely sapped her strength - we had to call an ambulance yesterday because she couldn't get off the toilet. this royally sucks. i know i can't take care of her the way she needs taken care of, and yet i don't want to say "alrighty, off to the rest home you go" *sigh*

lots of huge life decisions going to be made in the near future - and i fucking hate it.

a guaranteed winner...

think i'm gonna buy 146,107,962 lotto tickets so i'm guaranteed to win the $205 million Powerball jackpot - that leaves me with $58,892,038...of course, with my luck, this would be the week that the jackpot gets split 92 ways....

never a dull moment...

*sigh* monday i took mom to her radiation appointment...after we saw the doc, i went go get the car. waiting outside the St. Francis Cancer Center, i decided there wasn't nearly enough excitement going on and while waiting for mom, i had a seizure. one feature on my mom's car that irks me is that when ya get in the car, it locks you in. thankfully, i wasn't driving the car, i just had it in park, so it was just a matter of security getting a slim jim to break into mom's car. then it was off to the emergency room. fun fun fun.

today i slept the whole day, and still i find myself exhausted. i definitely don't need this shit right now.

a buck twenty two...

i swear, i should be the poster child for Coupon Clippers Anonymous - LoBill (the el cheapo Marsh grocery outlet store) had good prices on Prego spaghetti sauce and Hamburger/Tuna Helpers this week. with my coupons added to the good prices, i made out like a bandit. and it's really cool cuz these are items that are in high demand at the food pantry - i can't give em oodles of cash donations, but i can clip coupons like a mofo and spend a little time to give em goods that are needed just as much as cash.

Purchased:

10 jars of Prego spaghetti sauce
6 boxes Tuna Helper
2 boxes Hamburger Helper
1 2 liter bottle of Orange Soda (Tropicana sent me a coupon for a freebie)

After coupons, i paid:
$5.72

then the register spit out three separate coupons for $1.50 each off my next purchase of anything there at the store, making my net cost a grand total of $1.22. not too bad.

next stop - kroger. *8-)

how are you doing?

"how are you doing?" that's what several friends and family members have asked me today - well, the answer has been "Fine" - fine until you asked. then i want to just completely fall apart. i was a bit on edge because at 3pm Mom was scheduled to meet a lawyer, to do all those legal things, draw up a will, etc...

didn't happen. at mom's regular 2pm radiation treatment the medical staff noticed she wasn't doing too good - her breathing's really labored and she has no strength at all. sent her for a chest x-ray and to the emergency room, not particularly because it was a major emergency but because they'd find out what was going on faster than if they sent her to her pulmonary doc and then he ordered tests, blah blah blah... so, at the er we find out that she's not holding her oxygen very well, they're giving her breathing treatments and gonna keep her overnight. she was having some pain, so they gave her a little bit o morphine - i'm praying it was the morphine that had her in la-la land. she was talking to me, and i asked her to speak up - "Flanner & Buchanan?" she said. now, even if it is just the drugs talking, when Mom babbles about funeral homes, i'm FREAKING OUT.

so i came home to get her meds so that we can tell the hospital precisely what dosages of what she's taking (why she doesn't have a list of hers printed out like i do mine, i dunno) and now i'm waiting for the hospital to call and tell me what room they've put her in so i can go to her.

this is so damned hard.

friday nite!!

this thing's weird....

Guess the Dictator or Television Sit-Com Character - i have yet to stump it, it's guessed all the sitcom characters i've recollected - Kip Wilson, Marge Simpson, Cliff Huxtable, Peter Brady, Mork, Fonz, Balki, Arnold Drummond, and on and on and on...

Northern Sun...

i'm not sure which i find more obnoxious - the plethora of Lance Armstrong bracelet knock-offs or all the of magnetic car ribbons out there nowadays. not sure if the magnets started with the yellow ribbon "support our troops" message, but nowadays there's something for everyone...

got a Northern Sun Merchandising catalog in the mail today, and literally laughed out loud when i saw this magnet:



too bad i can't stick magnets to my made-of-plastic saturn...

StumbleUpon...

StumbleUpon is a cool utility for surfing the web, finding websites you didn't know existed but are spiffy...

apparently someone on fark has similar StumbleUpon prefs to mine, cuz there have been fark discussions about things i've recently seen and/or mentioned - ie the Speech-Bubble Stickers in NYC...

obnoxious...

...yet it still made me laugh. Republican Women vs Democrat Women

speech bubbles...

this looks to be cool project, tho the results probably wouldn't be as spiffy if we tried duplicating this in indianapolis - alas, we don't have as many signs (or creative/funny/mischievious people) in Naptown as they do in NYC...

wandering around...

amazing the stuff you can stumble upon while wandering around the internet...

i found this updated version of American Gothic when i stumbled upon this website while digging up info for freeway blogging projects...

one liners/goofy shit culled from the net...

Two parrots sat on a perch. One said to the other, "Do you smell fish?"

I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it.

An old person is like a Slinky: Not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you see one tumble down the stairs.

How do you circumcise a whale? You send down four skin divers.

What is brown and lives in a bell tower? The lunch bag of Notre Dame.

Why do fire departments have Dalmatians? So they can find the hydrants.

I recently took up meditation. It beats sitting around doing nothing.

I almost fell in love with a psychic, but she left me before we met.

I am a kleptomaniac, but when it gets really bad I take something for it.

Two antennas meet on a roof, fall in love and get married. The ceremony wasn't much but the reception was great.

When a clock is hungry, it goes back four seconds.

I'm not into working out. My philosophy is no pain, no pain.

I'm in shape. Round is a shape.

If you don't pay your exorcist, you may get repossessed.

What do Eskimos get from sitting on the ice too long? Polaroids.

Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again.

What's brown and sticky? A stick.

I used to have a handle on life, but it broke.

Wrinkled was not one of the things I wanted to be when I grew up.

People like you are the reason people like me need medication.

Save the trees, wipe your butt with an owl.

Rock is dead. Long live paper and scissors.

Practice safe lunch: Use a condiment.

Rehab is for quitters.

I'm not crazy, I've just been in a very bad mood for 30 years.

Allow me to introduce my selves.

Sarcasm is just one more service I offer.

Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you weren't asleep.

Is it time for your medication or mine?

Out of my mind - back in five minutes.

Jack Kevorkian for White House physician.

I have the body of a god. Buddha.

I doubt, therefore I might be.

If you're happy and you know it see a shrink.

Keep the dream alive: Hit the snooze button.

flowers...

it was really nice of all of mom's friends to send these beautiful bouquets and baskets of flowers while she was in the hospital, but it's made me realize something - i fucking HATE carnations. they're pretty enough, but the smell just reminds me of death. perhaps because they're predominant in funeral arrangements? i dunno, but the arrangements that have carnations in them are gonna be gone sooner rather than later.