Wednesday, November 02, 2005

can't think of a title...

lot's gone on since my last post - 2 days after the baptism, mom was moved from the transitional care unit at st. francis to manor care healthcare center - the nursing home that my grandparents lived in about 20 years ago. now the insurance company's urging us to get mom home and use hospice care, forget about the rehab treatments and all. i know that it's all a matter of numbers - the cancer doc's looking at statistics and life expectancies and such, and the insurance company's looking at the bottom line, what's cheapest for them, but dammit, she's not giving up, so why are they insisting that she do so? alrighty, so her cancer's advanced and it's incurable, but that does NOT mean that she's dead now - why treat her that way?!?!?!? she wants to keep going on! she's not able to stay at home alone in her current condition, that's why she needs to stay at the nursing home (yeah, i'm here living with her, but considering my epilepsy and the fact that we don't know when my next seizure's gonna happen, i can't be reliably counted on to care for her) and it's all just a big headache. she's thanked me and my aunts and cousins for all we've done, but we've told her that we're doing it so that she can focus on herself, making herself comfortable and living the way she wants.

*sigh* dammit, this is hard.

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