wednesday's doc appt...

thankfully, it wasn't the asshole neurologist i saw last time that told me to tape my mouth shut to lose weight when i went to followup with a neurologist on wednesday - dr. salanova is much more understanding and has a bedside manner with her patients that doesn't make you want to slap the shit out of her. of course, one more thing about going to see docs at the IU Neurology lab (besides not always seeing the same doc) is that we get to teach the young docs a bit - it's not just one doc asking you questions, it's four in the room gathering data on you. so, in the morning i'm going to get some blood drawn for a variety of tests, primarily a Tegretol level to make sure i'm not overdosing on it. Perhaps that's the reason i've been so freakin exhausted this past week - usually, after a seizure, i need a day or two to sleep it off, but it's been 8 days now, and i still just want to do nothing but sleep.

*yawn*

brain damage...

so, tuesday i took a little trip to the grocery store, where i proceeded to have a seizure. spent most of that day at st. francis south, then they transferred me to st. francis beech grove, where i spent tuesday night and most of wednesday, before being discharged. tegretol level was low, probably due to my being sick a few days prior, in addition to having lowered the med level a while back when i seemed to be having side effects from it. *sigh*

tuesday i had 4 seizures - one at the grocery, and 3 more at the hospital...subsequently, i've been exhausted, sleeping most of the time weds, thurs, fri, sat, and now sunday...*yawn*...amazing how exhausting this shit can be...

15593232 Seconds 'Til Christmas!

at kroger today, i noticed one of the employees marking down all the summer/picnic-type merchandise and shuffling it all down to the end of the aisle, getting ready to move it all out...

"the christmas merchandise coming in?" i asked her...

"not yet, the school supplies are taking over!" was her response...

i suppose i should be relieved that it's school supplies - even though i was joking when i asked, i really would NOT have been surprised if they were getting ready for christmas merchandise...

Happy (?!?) Anniversary

My 2005 datebook from the InSightOut book club (a spiffy LBGT mail order book club) informs me that it is today, June 27, that is the anniversary of the Stonewall riots. It's definitely got me thinking - how far have we come since 1969? I think there are lots of different answers to that question, both positive and negative. It brings up a lot more questions in me as well. I suppose between this anniversary and last night's episode of Queer As Folk that had a plot line about Propositions taking away our rights, I'm thrown into an state of introspection that hasn't hit me for quite a while. Perhaps it's just because i was ill and unable to attend any Pride events this year, but if anyone else hasn't really given this stuff a good hard thinking about lately, i'd strongly encourage it.

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Court TV in Indianapolis

wow, one of my favorite cable tv channels is coming to visit us in Indianapolis in a couple of months - Court TV’s Seriously Entertaining Summer Tour comes to the state fairgrounds in August...

now if we could just get Bravo! to bring some of their shows to town - errr, wait, maybe that wouldn't be a good idea - the Fab 5 in Indy? Jonathan Antin, perhaps? hmmmm...

hadn't noticed the bondage theme before...

hadn't noticed the bondage theme before in wonder woman comic book covers, but superdickery.com has em all lined up to make it so very obvious - in a gallery labeled "Suffering Sappho!", surprisingly enough. *8-) my personal fave is the quote they added after this cover, featuring the skeleton of wonder woman chained to a wall: "Looks like someone forgot the safeword." ROFL

yeah, i think it's obvious that i should be sleeping right now...

ethical sluttiness...

True Ethical Slut Whoa! You scored 30 Sluttiness Points and 19 Ethics Points! Interesting...

Doesn’t sex just kick ass? You love it and your friends love it and your playmates love it. Sex is that overflowing bowl of ice cream you just have to share with the world. Because maybe, just maybe, if we can get more happy good sex out into the world, we can make it a happier place for everyone in it. You know how to communicate about what you want and how to listen to your partner’s desires. You even use your turn signals. You’re just an all around good person. You are one of the beautiful people.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 64% on Sluttiness You scored higher than 58% on Ethics

Link: The Ethical Slut Test written by PlayfulKissing on OkCupid Free Online Dating

hmmmm...interesting...

whodathunkit...in the googling i did for info on the Ethical Slut book, i was pointed to a paid link for The Veg Sex Shop - they've got vegan condoms, dental dams and gloves "...so it's never been a better time for herbivores to get frisky." no leather products, obviously, but definitely an interesting site. never woulda thought that condoms could be vegan or non-vegan...

a good weekend...

had its ups and downs, but it was primarily a good weekend. i was unsure in the beginning, when our trek to the park started off late because jaz (the doggie amanda was doggiesitting) took to overturning my cooler of hard lemonade in amanda's PT Cruiser while we were in the grocery store picking up food for the trip. about half of it soaked the floorboards - 2.5 gallons of booze - of amanda's car. thankfully half the liquid in the 5 gallon cooler stayed in the cooler, since that lemonade recipe is a rather expensive one.

i was amazed at how easy it was to forget all the crappy shit going on here in indy with my life and be able to take a mental/emotional vacation from people/places/things that are driving me nuts - i just chilled for the weekend. there was a bit of freaking out saturday evening, but it quickly dissipated into the night sky. wish i could do that more often.

so, now i'm a slight bit refreshed, with new people to keep in touch with and a variety of things to check out (first on the "new books to buy" list: The Ethical Slut: A Guide to Infinite Sexual Possibilities
by Dossie Easton & Catherine A. Liszt - courtesy of an interesting discussion with the token bisexual of the group *grin*)

when life gives you lemons...

...make lemonade, as the ol cliche goes. well, after a rather crappy week (evidenced by my complete lack of blogging) i'm making my lemonade and going camping. yup, goin on the lesbo camping trip to Mounds State Park (go ahead, make the lousy pun about lesbos and Mounds) and i've made Michele's special recipe for Hard Lemonade - 5 gallons of lemonade made with Everclear and 100 proof vodka oughta get quite a few grrls drunk. *8-)

Indy Pride

it's Pride weekend here in Indianapolis. alas, i'm not sure how much i'm gonna be able to participate since i'm feeling so weird. *shrug*

an evening in the emergency room...

spent last night in the emergency room because i was feeling weird. Docs seem to think it's a Tegretol overdose. the whole thing's just crazy - call my family doc's office cuz that's what medicaid demands - they shrug their shoulders (over the phone, that is) and tell me i should just go to the emergency room, that they'll probably have to run tests that they couldn't do at the doc's office. go to the emergency room and they ask me "why are you here?" cuz that's what my doc told me, i tell them. so they draw some blood, gimme a bag of saline because i may be dehydrated, and give me a pill to make the room stop spinning. then they make me wait...and wait...and wait...mom's going crazy - eventually we find out that the tegretol level had to get sent out, that's why it's taking longer...then after more waiting we find out that they declined to put "STAT" on the sample, so that's why it's taking so friggin long. i was okay (prolly cuz of the drugs that gave me, which included a small dose of Ativan - woo hoo!) but mom was climbing the walls. they tell me their best guess is that i've overdosed on my Tegretol, and send me home. er, exxxcuse me? what do i do about taking my meds that evening, 3 of which are tegretol pills? oh, go ahead and take everything. so, i might be overdosing on something and your solution is for me to take more of it? err, well, take only 2 of em, and follow up with your neurologist. so that i did. call the neurologists office, they tell me i'm scheduled in July, that's the soonest they can see me - excuse me?!?!? spent the night in the emergency room and yet they can't follow up with me until late july? so they tell me they'll have a doc call back. he agrees with the er doc's assessment and we'll cut back the tegretol and see how it goes. how completely fucking vague. arghhhhh

break out "Seven and the Ragged Tiger" tonight...

my date book gives info on the phases of the moon, and apparently there's a new moon tonight. that means it's time to dig up the Duran Duran music - "New Moon On Monday" was released in 1983.

*sigh* oh, they're soooo dreamy. errrr, well, they were when i was 11, 12, 13 years old. simon lebon, such a hunky lead singer...but oh, nick rhodes, doing keyboards in his wild hair and crazy makeup...LOL

of course, i think it's their fault i turned into a big ol' dyke - i remember watching the unrated version of the "Girls On Film" video - topless chicks having pillow fights...*sigh* those were the days...

hrmmm, their site says they're coming to indy on July 24 - tickets are $59.50 - ouch!!

bumper sticker of the day...

this one made me laugh...

You almost have a full deck, however you are one jack off

heh heh heh...

Queer As Folk and Sharon Gless

tonight was another episode of the final season of Queer As Folk (the us version, that is) - i must say, showtime really fucked up by leaving such huge gaps between seasons...it's hard to get back into it. i suspect another reason it's difficult to get into it is that the show's just a complete downer - everybody's pissed at everybody, and there's just such a negative tone over the whole thing. it really sucks...

one thing i always found amusing was that my MOTHER would usually remind me about QAF being on - sometimes i think she liked it more than me. kinda weird watching a tv show with your mother and the gayboys are doin the nasty, but we both enjoyed the show.

sharon gless is definitely a highlight to the show - and wouldn't ya know it, her birthday was last week. i was shocked to see that she's 62. SIXTY-TWO?!?!? enjoy the Social Security benefits, Officer Cagney...

Hit Me Baby One More Time

NBC's making me feel old - Hit Me Baby One More Time is on - "Veteran musicians compete with performances of their hits and a cover of a popular song, with the winner to be determined by audience voting; included are updates on each performer's career as well as a history of their paths to fame." tonight it's Loverboy, CeCe Peniston, A Flock Of Seagulls, Tiffany and Arrested Development...

i'm so confused - all these guys got old and fat and bald in the 20-ish years since they were popular - i thought time was just supposed to come to a screeching halt for them so that my memories could stay as they were.

birthday celebrations!

my calendar of days informs me that today's the birthday of the Marquis de Sade - 265 years of Sadistic goodness! ;-)

tomorrow i'm gonna meet up with Steph and others to celebrate her birthday - if June 3rd is her actual birthday, then she shares it with Allen Ginsberg, although i'm gonna venture a guess and say she wasn't born in the same year (1926) *8-)

i actually met Ginsberg waaaaaay back in my college days - my impression? the guy was a major asshole. he came to speak during our Pink Triangle Week and he just thought he was all that and a bag o' chips - hey, even if he was, he was just such a major asshole. he arrived on campus and promptly told event organizers which student he wanted to be with that evening - uhhhh, al, perhaps you should TALK TO THE GUY FIRST and not act as if you're placing an order at the Boyz R Us drive-thru. yup, he was an asshole. *shrug*

Urkel Found!

amazing the weirdness the world wide web contains...just in case you were wondering whatever happened to Urkel from Family Matters (aka Jaleel White), he blogs on occasion for the NBA's website