Thursday, March 10, 2005
so this vagina goes into a grocery store...
that's about how it was - majorly PMSing, i bought waaaaay too much junk food. oh well, ya only live once, right?
Saturday, March 05, 2005
other medical news...
oh yeah, the cat scan came back alright (any time i tell people it was "normal" they question me because apparently the thought of lori's head and normal used in the same sentence does not compute) my thyroid's okay, as well as my blood count. however, they forgot to do the tegretol level when they did the other 2 blood tests, so i gave up another tube of blood and am still waiting to hear what's up with that.
so if my thyroid's okay, what the hell's going on that's got me sweating all the time and drinking like a fish? my blood sugars are kept in check, i don't think it's a byproduct of the diabetes. alas, i'm NOT going to go look on webmd and determine that i've got some exotic disease to add to the list of what's wrong with me - that list is long enough, thanks.
so if my thyroid's okay, what the hell's going on that's got me sweating all the time and drinking like a fish? my blood sugars are kept in check, i don't think it's a byproduct of the diabetes. alas, i'm NOT going to go look on webmd and determine that i've got some exotic disease to add to the list of what's wrong with me - that list is long enough, thanks.
thirty bucks at the pharmacy...
i suppose spending thirty bucks at the pharmacy on prescriptions isn't that bad, it's just that when your prescriptions are three dollars each that it kinda weirds ya out a bit. thank god for medicaid.
i'm officially outta the intensive outpatient therapy program (IOP) at behavioral care south - they're moving me across the street, to Adult & Child, where they feel i can get a better level of care. this means i'm no longer gonna see sheron, my therapist of the last few years, but since there's generally a 2-3 month wait for an appointment, i suppose that's not that big a deal. i just really hate change, even when i know it's for the better.
i'm officially outta the intensive outpatient therapy program (IOP) at behavioral care south - they're moving me across the street, to Adult & Child, where they feel i can get a better level of care. this means i'm no longer gonna see sheron, my therapist of the last few years, but since there's generally a 2-3 month wait for an appointment, i suppose that's not that big a deal. i just really hate change, even when i know it's for the better.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
grrrrrrr
my disability denial came in the mail yesterday. i'd thought that since they were taking longer than usual to approve me that they'd actually APPROVE me, but i was wrong in thinking that.
i am so fucked.
i am so fucked.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
*bonk*
that's the sound my head made as i dropped a box on it last thursday - going through some of the Pillsbury Doughboy stuff i have in storage. about 50 lbs of the stuff in a box, dropped from above me, right onto my forehead. owww.
didn't really think much about it until mom and i talked sunday, about the HUGE amount of sleeping i'd done over the past few days (16-18 hrs a day) and my just not seeming like myself. so we headed to the doc on monday - who knows, perhaps it's a concussion, or a problem with my seizure drugs. also mentioned to him some other non-related things i hadn't told him at my previous appointment - increased thirst, sweating, etc - stuff that seemed related to my diabetes or perhaps a thyroid problem. so they took a couple of tubes of blood from me and told me they'd schedule me for a CAT scan - great, hope this doesn't affect the upcoming brain surgery.
didn't really think much about it until mom and i talked sunday, about the HUGE amount of sleeping i'd done over the past few days (16-18 hrs a day) and my just not seeming like myself. so we headed to the doc on monday - who knows, perhaps it's a concussion, or a problem with my seizure drugs. also mentioned to him some other non-related things i hadn't told him at my previous appointment - increased thirst, sweating, etc - stuff that seemed related to my diabetes or perhaps a thyroid problem. so they took a couple of tubes of blood from me and told me they'd schedule me for a CAT scan - great, hope this doesn't affect the upcoming brain surgery.
Friday, February 18, 2005
Million Dollar Baby
mom and i saw Million Dollar Baby today - very good movie. i had my doubts before going in - Mystic River had lots of similar hype about it and i just didn't get it, it seemed as though just because Clint Eastwood did it that it deserved a spectacular review.
so if you haven't seen Million Dollar Baby, quit reading here, cuz there are spoilers to follow...
conservatives like Michael Medved and Rush Limbaugh have gone about giving away the film's ending, because they're so pro-life that a movie that even brings up the possibility of euthanasia is not worth seeing. i disagree. i also disagree with people that say that the message of this movie is that if you're a quadriplegic, you don't have any reason to live. this movie was about Maggie (played by Hilary Swank) and her decision to end her life, with the assistance of Frankie (played by Clint Eastwood) - it was about one character, not a general statement on euthanasia. i think Maggie's life was so crappy before becoming a boxer that boxing was all she had to live for - with that taken away from her, she had nothing else. that's not to say that quadriplegics can't go on to live very productive lives, but this character had no reason to go on.
so if you haven't seen Million Dollar Baby, quit reading here, cuz there are spoilers to follow...
conservatives like Michael Medved and Rush Limbaugh have gone about giving away the film's ending, because they're so pro-life that a movie that even brings up the possibility of euthanasia is not worth seeing. i disagree. i also disagree with people that say that the message of this movie is that if you're a quadriplegic, you don't have any reason to live. this movie was about Maggie (played by Hilary Swank) and her decision to end her life, with the assistance of Frankie (played by Clint Eastwood) - it was about one character, not a general statement on euthanasia. i think Maggie's life was so crappy before becoming a boxer that boxing was all she had to live for - with that taken away from her, she had nothing else. that's not to say that quadriplegics can't go on to live very productive lives, but this character had no reason to go on.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
where have i been?
...definitely not blogging, that's for sure.
still waiting to hear back from Social Security on my disability claim. with my luck, i'll be done with the brain surgery, all healed up and able to work by the time they get back to me. naah, probably not. i don't intend to be on disability the rest of my life, but i'm certainly not able to work at this point.
fiddling around with my medications is oh so much fun. at least now i'm just on the tegretol xr and keppra - no more topamax. being on three seizure meds plus everything else i take was seriously kicking my ass. i suspect i need to adjust the psychiatric meds, but that's not gonna happen now because dr. parrish has left and now i need to find a new shrink. crossing my fingers that the shrink that did my evaluation for the epilepsy surgery also takes patients, but i'm not sure at this point.
making some changes to therapy - the intensive outpatient program with richard wasn't working for me, so i need to figure out what to do next. methinks i need a queer group to discuss some of my issues, or at least one that i can relate to more than the one i've been in thus far. or perhaps it's time to go back to 1 on 1 therapy for a bit.
been volunteering at Hunger, Inc. - a food pantry down the street. it's been very cool, i definitely have needed an outlet for doing volunteer work for a long time. it's not quite the same as IYG or other things i've done, but still doing some good, nonetheless.
other than that, not much going on. i need to get out and do more things, and definitely blog more ;-)
still waiting to hear back from Social Security on my disability claim. with my luck, i'll be done with the brain surgery, all healed up and able to work by the time they get back to me. naah, probably not. i don't intend to be on disability the rest of my life, but i'm certainly not able to work at this point.
fiddling around with my medications is oh so much fun. at least now i'm just on the tegretol xr and keppra - no more topamax. being on three seizure meds plus everything else i take was seriously kicking my ass. i suspect i need to adjust the psychiatric meds, but that's not gonna happen now because dr. parrish has left and now i need to find a new shrink. crossing my fingers that the shrink that did my evaluation for the epilepsy surgery also takes patients, but i'm not sure at this point.
making some changes to therapy - the intensive outpatient program with richard wasn't working for me, so i need to figure out what to do next. methinks i need a queer group to discuss some of my issues, or at least one that i can relate to more than the one i've been in thus far. or perhaps it's time to go back to 1 on 1 therapy for a bit.
been volunteering at Hunger, Inc. - a food pantry down the street. it's been very cool, i definitely have needed an outlet for doing volunteer work for a long time. it's not quite the same as IYG or other things i've done, but still doing some good, nonetheless.
other than that, not much going on. i need to get out and do more things, and definitely blog more ;-)
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
cue sonny & cher...
...took a while to remember, but eventually it came to me - it was "I got you babe" on Bill Murray's radio to awaken him on Groundhog Day.
now i've got that friggin song in my head (or rather just the title snippet played over and over and over and over and over again) and the friggin groundhog says there's 6 more weeks of winter this year. bleargh.
now i've got that friggin song in my head (or rather just the title snippet played over and over and over and over and over again) and the friggin groundhog says there's 6 more weeks of winter this year. bleargh.
Friday, January 21, 2005
bracelets
if you were wondering what meanings behind the various colors of rubber bracelets out there are, check out this article...
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
bleargh...
that pretty much sums it up...bleargh.
been doing the intensive outpatient therapy thang for a couple of weeks now - it's helping a bit, but not quite as good as the last time i was there. *shrug* don't quite click with the therapist running the show this time around, i suspect.
think i'm also still adjusting to being on 3 seizure meds at once - hopefully the tegretol level will come back as good so we can start weaning me off of the topamax. i really think being on 3 meds all at once is what's making me a freaking zombie. kat even mentioned it when we went out to dinner tonight, how at one point over the weekend she looked at me and it was like looking at a brick wall. i'm just not quite all there. this crap makes it really hard to fight off the depression.
been doing the intensive outpatient therapy thang for a couple of weeks now - it's helping a bit, but not quite as good as the last time i was there. *shrug* don't quite click with the therapist running the show this time around, i suspect.
think i'm also still adjusting to being on 3 seizure meds at once - hopefully the tegretol level will come back as good so we can start weaning me off of the topamax. i really think being on 3 meds all at once is what's making me a freaking zombie. kat even mentioned it when we went out to dinner tonight, how at one point over the weekend she looked at me and it was like looking at a brick wall. i'm just not quite all there. this crap makes it really hard to fight off the depression.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
around the world and again and again...and then some more...
brother informs me that he's logged 80,000+ frequent flier miles on delta in 2004 from his music gigs...pretty impressive, considering he's done quite a bit of stuff that he's driven to/from in the us and that the circumference of the globe is about 25k miles. around the world 3 times in a year - neat stuff. he's looking at doing a gig in japan this year, and he's probably gonna be using his frequent flier miles to take codi along with him - awwwwww.
i have yet to meet their new doggie, i really need to go over there and do that.
i have yet to meet their new doggie, i really need to go over there and do that.
Friday, January 07, 2005
who died?
who died? a question both my mother and i had when seeing flags flying at half-staff, particularly in front of the post office and other public buildings. hadn't seen anything about it on the news or anything - well, apparently it's by order of Dubya, in honor of victims of the tsunami.
hmmmm...
hmmmm...
a couple more months before i lose my mind (well, a chunk of it, at least)
the brain surgery, originally planned for january or february, is looking to be happening in april now...
seems i have to get my head together before they'll cut it open and take some of it out...
between starting new seizure meds and tapering off the old ones, and doing some intensive outpatient therapy to psychologically get my head on straight (so to speak) we wanna have some calm time before going in and carving things out...
guess i'm okay with that, but i wish i could just hit the button on the remote control and get all this done - i'm ready to get the surgery over and done with, even if physically i might not be ready...i guess i can wait - we want this thang to be a success...
fun fun fun!
seems i have to get my head together before they'll cut it open and take some of it out...
between starting new seizure meds and tapering off the old ones, and doing some intensive outpatient therapy to psychologically get my head on straight (so to speak) we wanna have some calm time before going in and carving things out...
guess i'm okay with that, but i wish i could just hit the
fun fun fun!
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
yet another exhibit to prove why weblogs are soooo important...
without blogging, there wouldn't be accounts of crucially important world events such as TPIR...
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Saturday, January 01, 2005
First movie seen at the theater this year: Finding Neverland
so, today mom and i went to see Finding Neverland - the Johnny Depp biopic about J.M. Barrie, creator of Peter Pan (the Play, not the peanut butter, smart ass!) i'm gonna agree with Roger Ebert's assessment - 3.5 stars...pretty good movie...surprisingly more of a chick flick than i expected...i must say, i find all the references that Michael Jackson makes to Neverland and Peter Pan even more disturbing after seeing this movie - does he use Barrie's interest in this widow's 4 kids as justification for child molestation? Did Barrie himself molest kids? dunno about that stuff...
and on a somewhat unrelated note, we saw posters for an upcoming movie there at the theater - side by side, one with Brad Pitt that said "Mr.", one with Angelina Jolie that said "Mrs." - apparently, they're adverts for the movie Mr. and Mrs. Smith - in theaters in JUNE...looking at the website, there are soooo many things wrong with this movie, i'm not even gonna say a word....
and on a somewhat unrelated note, we saw posters for an upcoming movie there at the theater - side by side, one with Brad Pitt that said "Mr.", one with Angelina Jolie that said "Mrs." - apparently, they're adverts for the movie Mr. and Mrs. Smith - in theaters in JUNE...looking at the website, there are soooo many things wrong with this movie, i'm not even gonna say a word....
Friday, December 31, 2004
once again, molly nails it...
molly ivins is right on - her recap of 2004 says it all...read it at working for change's web site
the final paragraph seems to me exactly how i feel looking back at this year and forward to next:
"Well, friends, the old ball is starting another orbit of the sun, giving us all a chance to do better this time. Let's not blow it, because we sure look like dogmeat after this one."
the final paragraph seems to me exactly how i feel looking back at this year and forward to next:
"Well, friends, the old ball is starting another orbit of the sun, giving us all a chance to do better this time. Let's not blow it, because we sure look like dogmeat after this one."
Sunday, December 19, 2004
*yawn*
dunno if it's the change in meds or something else going on, but if sleeping was an olympic sport, these days i would be an olympic gold medalist - setting unbeatable world records, noless.
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