is that a quote from a specific person, or just some little ditty an anonymous person came up with to print on a t-shirt? hell if i know, but i'll be damned if it isn't the fucking truth.
the more things change, the more they stay the same...
unearthed my old journal today...it's one of the old-fashioned kind - made out of sheets of paper, they call them "books" - apparently that's what people used before blogs... ;-)
anyhoo, it's a blank book, with keith haring artwork on the cover...containing the gory details of my life spanning 3 nov 96 - 31 dec 99...and whaddaya know, a lot of the shit i wrote then is the same shit i'm dealing with now...depression, anxiety, job problems (granted, back then i actually HAD a job - now i'm freaking cuz i don't have one), and on and on and on...granted, there are things i'm dealing with now that i didn't deal with then (and vice versa) but it's amazing how similar things are...maybe it isn't amazing, maybe i'm just in a huge fucking RUT...
*shrug*
Friday, May 07, 2004
googling people...
it's kinda weird when ya google a doc to get more info on their professional life and then ya find out personal stuff about them...for instance, apparently my new shrink is a pretty good ragtime piano player...
the new doc...
met the new shrink last night...trying to not get too excited, but my initial impression is very good - compared to the last 2 shrinks, he rocks!
i was worried initially because we seemed to get off on a rocky start - as we were going through my medical history, i told him that i had a Vagus Nerve Stimulator implanted and asked if he was familiar with it. it was then that he said "not everyone realizes this, but i am a medical doctor" - yeah buddy, i know a psychiatrist has an M.D. attached to his name. i apologized and told him that i did know that but that i've had to explain the VNS to many an M.D. and nurse in assorted ERs and doctor's offices. after that, things were cool.
i may be following in momma's footsteps with the sleep apnea thing - something i'll have to discuss with dr. mohan when i see him next week.
i was worried initially because we seemed to get off on a rocky start - as we were going through my medical history, i told him that i had a Vagus Nerve Stimulator implanted and asked if he was familiar with it. it was then that he said "not everyone realizes this, but i am a medical doctor" - yeah buddy, i know a psychiatrist has an M.D. attached to his name. i apologized and told him that i did know that but that i've had to explain the VNS to many an M.D. and nurse in assorted ERs and doctor's offices. after that, things were cool.
i may be following in momma's footsteps with the sleep apnea thing - something i'll have to discuss with dr. mohan when i see him next week.
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
getting a fix...
that's what i did this evening - fed my shopping addiction. today was the last day of Coupon Mania at Kroger - they double coupons up to $1.00 and triple the $0.50's. a great time to make purchases to send off to assorted food banks and charities around town.
cart full o groceries: $299.88
final price after zapping my evil plus card and taking off coupons: $111.34
total savings: $188.54
i put the cold stuff away, now i'm gonna take a nap and sort out the rest of the stuff later...*yawn* bargain hunting can be so exhausting.
cart full o groceries: $299.88
final price after zapping my evil plus card and taking off coupons: $111.34
total savings: $188.54
i put the cold stuff away, now i'm gonna take a nap and sort out the rest of the stuff later...*yawn* bargain hunting can be so exhausting.
my wrist...
went to physical therapy today...i guess the doc telling me monday that i might need either a cortisone shot or surgery scared my wrist - the pain has lessened a great deal...so now the physical therapist says we're gonna move on to strengthening exercises - excitement galore. hopefully the pain will be gone before a week from next monday and we won't need that cortisone shot - last time i had one it seemed to make things WORSE before they got better.
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
a hellcat - that's me!
heh heh heh - at least that's what deb called me when i told her of all my exciting plans for today - go vote, and do laundry. woo hoo - party animal, that's me!!
there's been some interesting discussion on the gayindy list about the election - some democrat voters are talking about crossing over and voting republican, either for Miller or Daniels, depending on their strategy. some think having miller in november's election will help Kernan (since miller's nuttier than a fruitcake - and NOT the good kind of fruitcake, either!), while some think having daniels in the election is a hell of a lot better than miller. i thought seriously about it before voting, but if there was any possible chance that my one vote would mean eric miller ended up as governor, i'd just have to blow my freaking brains out.
this appears to be the election of "who's the least evil?" - i wouldn't call joe kernan evil, but he said he wouldn't run for re-election, and whaddaya know, he's running. and we won't even get started on the presidential race....
there's been some interesting discussion on the gayindy list about the election - some democrat voters are talking about crossing over and voting republican, either for Miller or Daniels, depending on their strategy. some think having miller in november's election will help Kernan (since miller's nuttier than a fruitcake - and NOT the good kind of fruitcake, either!), while some think having daniels in the election is a hell of a lot better than miller. i thought seriously about it before voting, but if there was any possible chance that my one vote would mean eric miller ended up as governor, i'd just have to blow my freaking brains out.
this appears to be the election of "who's the least evil?" - i wouldn't call joe kernan evil, but he said he wouldn't run for re-election, and whaddaya know, he's running. and we won't even get started on the presidential race....
*twiddle twiddle twiddle*
insomnia sucks. hope the new doc gives me a good pill when i see him on thursday...
Monday, May 03, 2004
ugh...
ugh...
that one grunt pretty much says it all...
today started out all fine and dandy - left kat's this morning (we watched Pirates of the Caribbean last nite - johnny depp WAS robbed of that oscar!) and went to the hand doctor appointment, then went home. after seeing how nice the weather was today, i figured i'd go to the cemetery today, although it's actually Wednesday that's the tenth anniversary of Chris Gonzales' death. so i gave Kat a personalized tour of Crown Hill...then we headed to the Abbey for some food (yay! i got the last piece of mocha mousse cake!!)...then it was off to Out Word Bound...a rather amusing thing happened there, but i'm gonna hold off from talking about it right now...
it was while driving Kat home that my head started hurting...and this wave of emotions just crashed over me...
right now, i just feel like crap. i'll sit here and tell myself it's cuz it's that time of the month, but it's probably more than that...there's soooo much going on in my head and it's really overworking that one remaining semi-functional brain cell that i have...
that one grunt pretty much says it all...
today started out all fine and dandy - left kat's this morning (we watched Pirates of the Caribbean last nite - johnny depp WAS robbed of that oscar!) and went to the hand doctor appointment, then went home. after seeing how nice the weather was today, i figured i'd go to the cemetery today, although it's actually Wednesday that's the tenth anniversary of Chris Gonzales' death. so i gave Kat a personalized tour of Crown Hill...then we headed to the Abbey for some food (yay! i got the last piece of mocha mousse cake!!)...then it was off to Out Word Bound...a rather amusing thing happened there, but i'm gonna hold off from talking about it right now...
it was while driving Kat home that my head started hurting...and this wave of emotions just crashed over me...
right now, i just feel like crap. i'll sit here and tell myself it's cuz it's that time of the month, but it's probably more than that...there's soooo much going on in my head and it's really overworking that one remaining semi-functional brain cell that i have...
a ganglion cyst...
a ganglion cyst - that's what the hand surgeon thinks i may have now. we'll do a couple more weeks of physical therapy - if i'm still hurting in 2 weeks, we'll do a cortisone shot. if it still hurts after that, surgery may be necessary...dunno if i could get a 2fer and get the carpal tunnel stuff taken care of at the same time, guess we'll see if that time comes...
Thursday, April 29, 2004
movies...
kat and i have watched a few movies over the last couple of nights...i went over to her place wednesday night, and we rented Johnny English and Wonderland...we watched Johnny English - silly movie, but provided a much-needed laugh.
tonight, we watched Wonderland - interesting story, but a bit confusing...i guess that's the way with true-crime dramas nowadays - if there's the slightest bit of mystery they have to jumble everything up and change a few facts around to avoid libel charges or other potential lawsuits. Val Kilmer's an interesting John Holmes, and Dylan McDermott was practically unrecognizable - very weird. (somewhat related in the true-crime drama vein, June 1 is the release date for Monster on DVD - i'm looking forward to that one - yet another movie where it's definitely not got all the facts right, but if you take it as a fictional account, it's a damned good movie)
tonight, Kat treated me to a showing of Secretary - it was AWESOME...might just have to buy the DVD for myself. James Spader is just so fucking awesome, that's all there is to it. not very often that you find a movie about sadomasochism with such depth.
tonight, we watched Wonderland - interesting story, but a bit confusing...i guess that's the way with true-crime dramas nowadays - if there's the slightest bit of mystery they have to jumble everything up and change a few facts around to avoid libel charges or other potential lawsuits. Val Kilmer's an interesting John Holmes, and Dylan McDermott was practically unrecognizable - very weird. (somewhat related in the true-crime drama vein, June 1 is the release date for Monster on DVD - i'm looking forward to that one - yet another movie where it's definitely not got all the facts right, but if you take it as a fictional account, it's a damned good movie)
tonight, Kat treated me to a showing of Secretary - it was AWESOME...might just have to buy the DVD for myself. James Spader is just so fucking awesome, that's all there is to it. not very often that you find a movie about sadomasochism with such depth.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
dinner last night...
while the brother's over in Bosnia, i went to La Hacienda with his girlfriend...never ate there when i lived in irvington, but codi says she and adam go there a lot, cuz it's cheap. not bad food, either.
so, i suppose if adam and codi don't ever get married, codi won't ever be a sister-in-law...would that make her a sister-outlaw instead? *8-)
so, i suppose if adam and codi don't ever get married, codi won't ever be a sister-in-law...would that make her a sister-outlaw instead? *8-)
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Monday, April 26, 2004
tv critique...
okay, so we're now 2 episodes in to season 4 of Queer As Folk...first noticeable change is the intro - they've toned it down a bit...seems they've made it less queer...*shrug*...it's cool to see brian show some of his humanity while still keeping his amazing ability to be a huge asshole completely intact...the ted in rehab story irks me a bit - he's in therapy with an ex that he'd put into rehab that's now become a counselor?!?!? seems like a major ethical problem going on there - mitch shouldn't be his counselor or have anything to do with him other than to say he knows what he's going through and give him a little pat on the back. totally unrealistic story line there...*shrug*
and then there's the Restaurant - Rocco, yer fucking this one up. granted, it's making for great reality tv, but why get pissy when people call you on not ever being around when it's so obvious that you're never around, you're too busy plugging your book or whatever other little project you're working on...it'll be interesting to see how this one turns out...
meanwhile, on The Practice, there've been a number of interesting special guests (William Shatner's hysterical! Rebecca DeMornay's pretty good at the ice-queen bitch role, and it'll be interesting to see what they do with Vincent Pastore's (aka "Big Pussy" on the Sopranos) character. i wonder how many of these character's we'll be seeing in the spin-off that's supposed to be happening, with James Spader as the star...
Survivor All-Stars - c'mon Rupert, let's go all the way this time!!!
and then there's the Restaurant - Rocco, yer fucking this one up. granted, it's making for great reality tv, but why get pissy when people call you on not ever being around when it's so obvious that you're never around, you're too busy plugging your book or whatever other little project you're working on...it'll be interesting to see how this one turns out...
meanwhile, on The Practice, there've been a number of interesting special guests (William Shatner's hysterical! Rebecca DeMornay's pretty good at the ice-queen bitch role, and it'll be interesting to see what they do with Vincent Pastore's (aka "Big Pussy" on the Sopranos) character. i wonder how many of these character's we'll be seeing in the spin-off that's supposed to be happening, with James Spader as the star...
Survivor All-Stars - c'mon Rupert, let's go all the way this time!!!
shoulda listened...
ya know, when someone posts a link to TotalFark with the subject line "Not safe for epileptic nimpho's" (not my typo) you would think i'd know better than to click on the link...
alas, you are warned - this isn't safe for epileptic nymphos, or anyone else! but you know you wanna click it anyways...
alas, you are warned - this isn't safe for epileptic nymphos, or anyone else! but you know you wanna click it anyways...
heh heh heh...
"Voting is just like driving. If you want to go forward, put it in D. If you want to go back, put it in R"
pretty decent weekend...
had to cancel the AIDS memorial clean-up, because of all the rain last week and the forecasts saying we were gonna have crappy weather today (which didn't really seem to happen, of course!)...maybe next weekend - i dunno...
i didn't have time to actually participate in the "games" portion of games night saturday at steph's - i left at 8 to head over to michelle & deb's party. i'll have to find out if "scene it" is a good party game or not some other time, had to see deb since she won't be around much longer - the danged traitor is leaving for that evil city of Nashville, TN...*8-P
Zima's got a new flavor - XXX Hard Black Cherry Zima. Took a 6 pack to Michelle's - 'twas very good, i'll definitely get it again...
i didn't have time to actually participate in the "games" portion of games night saturday at steph's - i left at 8 to head over to michelle & deb's party. i'll have to find out if "scene it" is a good party game or not some other time, had to see deb since she won't be around much longer - the danged traitor is leaving for that evil city of Nashville, TN...*8-P
Zima's got a new flavor - XXX Hard Black Cherry Zima. Took a 6 pack to Michelle's - 'twas very good, i'll definitely get it again...
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Friday, April 23, 2004
Designs On The White House...
this could be interesting - the Designs On The White House contest will pick shirts to be printed and sold for eight different categories:
1. Best Pro-Kerry Shirt (positive spin, no mention of Bush)
2. Best Anti-Bush Shirt (negative spin, must mention Bush)
3. Best Issue Shirt - Domestic
4. Best Issue Shirt - Foreign
5. Funniest Shirt
6. Best Retro Shirt
7. Best Get Out The Vote Shirt
8. Most stylish / Most likely to be featured on Queer Eye
regardless of whether or not i become inspired to design a shirt, i'll hafta go back and check out the winners...
1. Best Pro-Kerry Shirt (positive spin, no mention of Bush)
2. Best Anti-Bush Shirt (negative spin, must mention Bush)
3. Best Issue Shirt - Domestic
4. Best Issue Shirt - Foreign
5. Funniest Shirt
6. Best Retro Shirt
7. Best Get Out The Vote Shirt
8. Most stylish / Most likely to be featured on Queer Eye
regardless of whether or not i become inspired to design a shirt, i'll hafta go back and check out the winners...
Thursday, April 22, 2004
games...
so saturday's a special edition of Girl's Games Night - rather than the usual friday night affair at Out Word Bound or Vic's, it'll be at Steph's house...
a couple of months ago i got a card in the mail - test drive a mitsubishi, get a CD of music from their commercials and a $25 American Express card. finally got the $ in the mail yesterday. that, combined with a $10 gift card from Target for getting a prescription filled, meant i got a new game for FREE. *8-)
so, i purchased Scene It? - a movie trivia game. taking it to Steph's should be good, since she'll have a DVD player, something that we might not have access to at a regular games night...
a couple of months ago i got a card in the mail - test drive a mitsubishi, get a CD of music from their commercials and a $25 American Express card. finally got the $ in the mail yesterday. that, combined with a $10 gift card from Target for getting a prescription filled, meant i got a new game for FREE. *8-)
so, i purchased Scene It? - a movie trivia game. taking it to Steph's should be good, since she'll have a DVD player, something that we might not have access to at a regular games night...
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