hee hee hee - Things you WON'T see on Hallmark Cards :

OUTSIDE: As the days go by, I think of how lucky I am...
INSIDE: That you're not here to ruin it for me.

OUTSIDE: If I get only one thing for Christmas...
INSIDE: I hope it's your sister.

OUTSIDE: I've always wanted to have someone to hold, someone to love.
INSIDE: After having met you, I've changed my mind.

OUTSIDE: I must admit, you brought religion into my life.
INSIDE: I never believed in hell 'til I met you.

OUTSIDE: Looking back over the years that we've been together, I can't help but wonder...
INSIDE: What the fuck was I thinking?

OUTSIDE: I always wanted to be rich, powerful and well-respected.
INSIDE: And while I'm dreaming, I wish you weren't so damn ugly.

OUTSIDE: Sex with you is like using drugs:
INSIDE: Lots of people do it, but nobody's stupid enough to admit it.

OUTSIDE: When we were together, you always said you'd die for me.
INSIDE: Now that we've broken up, I think it's time you kept your promise.

OUTSIDE: The holidays are a great time to be with family.
INSIDE: Of course, your family won't be with you, since I'm taking the kids and moving in with my sister, you cheating bastard!

OUTSIDE: I'm so miserable without you...
INSIDE: It's almost like you're here.

OUTSIDE: If you ever need a friend...
INSIDE: Buy a dog.

OUTSIDE: Congratulations on your new bundle of joy.
INSIDE: Did you ever find out who the father was?

another link regarding vanity licence plates - a lot of these relate to the cars that they're on - particularly amusing is:
"ALICE" on the white VW rabbit
"9FOFO" on the porsche 944
"AU YLOKS" aka Goldilocks
"IMYY4U" - i am too wise for you

hrm - ever wonder if a celebrity was dead or alive? go to http://www.dead-or-alive.org/

so, i'm putzing around on the web and looking for info on danny hutton hitters, the group that did "wouldn't it be good" for the pretty in pink soundtrack - damn that's a good song!! well, guess what? it's not even their song - it's a remake! it's actually a song by nik kershaw - so then it's off to kazaa to hear the original, as well as a few other remakes by kershaw himself...actually, i think i like the danny hutton hitters version better...it's a bit perkier, i think, and provides a good contrast to the depressing lyrics

so now i'm thinking my next mix cd will be "as good as, if not better" - songs that are remakes that are good in their own right! it might be hard to come up with a whole disc of songs of this type, then again, it might not be...*ponder*

god bless the world wide web - you really CAN do anything here...including calculating your blood alcohol content...just go to rupissed.com and type in the numbers...

the smoking gun has some funny files of people offended by personalized license plates - florida and wisconsin in particular

i especially liked the florida plate "FUCT 24 7" (with the complainer dotting her i's with little hearts - *gag!*)

the wisconsin plate "WMWNMNW" is also particularly brilliant because of the difficulty it would cause a cop in calling it in...a subsequent comment on fark was "For the bisexual among us, WMNNMN would be appropriate (and difficult to read)."

of course, if ya can't get a vanity plate for your car, you could just make one at the acme.com licensemaker...

interesting - Famous or Distinguished Gays, Lesbians, Bisexuals: A List of Names...

bummer - ann landers died...i had no idea that her daughter, margo howard, is the advice columnist that writes "dear prudence" on slate.msn.com - not as good as her mom in the advice department, but still an interesting read...

monster's got 2184 job opps in indy (that's total jobs, not the number i'd be interested in), hotjobs.com had 600, a few dozen in the indy star - found a few potentials, guess i oughta polish up that resume...

hmmm...a random google image finder - this may come in handy when i'm having photoshopper's block....

speaking of cooters...heh heh heh...

i just may have to get clara and myself matching t-shirts from the spring cooter fest - her for her love of turtles and such, and me cuz i'm a perv and just LOVE the double entendre there...and perhaps i'll win the lottery and be able to take her there next year for the 20th annual spring cooter fest!

just got back from the gyn...yup, i've still got a vagina and they didn't run away from it screaming or anything...the doc says we might try the shot to get my periods regular (damned polycystic ovaries!!) since the pills don't seem to be doing the job...whoo hoo...gonna give it another couple of months and see if things get back to "normal"...i kind of grinned to myself during the exam - what a job Dr. McDonald has! looking at cooters all day! granted, she's probably gotta look at some nasty ones as well as the purty ones, but still...

guess i'm not the only one with a brain that's rotting away - juicycerebellum.com looks like it might be an interesting read...

showtime has put Justin & Michael's queer comic book online - i'll have to read "Rage" when i've got more time, like when i'm at work...har har har...*8-)

so, just what the hell do ya do during an earthquake? here in indiana, we never got many lessons - however, there was an earthquake in southern indiana today, measuring 4.4 to 5.0 on the richter scale....well, the Southern California Earthquake Center says the important thing to remember is DUCK, COVER and HOLD....

info from www.1uphealth.com regarding temporal lobe epilepsy:

"Temporal lobe epilepsy. Temporal lobe epilepsy, or TLE, is the most common epilepsy syndrome with partial seizures. These seizures are often associated with auras. TLE often begins in childhood. Research has shown that repeated temporal lobe seizures can cause a brain structure called the hippocampus to shrink over time.

The hippocampus is important for memory and learning. While it may take years of temporal lobe seizures for measurable hippocampal damage to occur, this finding underlines the need to treat TLE early and as effectively as possible."

well, after i went semi-postal here at work tonight, the boss suggested i might want to look into FMLA and taking a medical leave...*sigh* so, on one hand ya have the boss telling ya no, you can't take the evening off, and on the other hand she's saying maybe it'd be good if i was gone for 6 months...

it's obviously been a night to talk to Sheron about - i just soooOOOOOOOOOOoooo do not want to be here. nothing in particular's made it worse than any other night, i'm just sick and tired - literally sick and tired.

had my first appointment with Sheron today - she's actually a LCSW, not a psychiatrist. lots of paperwork and such to get out of the way this first visit.

damn, ya really CAN do anything on the internet!!

wanna dump somebody? http://www.igotdumped.net/

need a Venn Diagram? http://www.venndiagram.com/

15

I act like I'm 15.
This test was brought to you by Melissa - No, really.... Take it here.

The Mirror Project is a pretty interesting website...

dogs on the web - can police dogs be trained to be racist? interesting question....now, just because the damned dog's been taught to bust non-whites doesn't seem like a good reason to KILL him - just don't use him as a police dog...

and if your dog's gay, check out A.S.S.....

more weird dreams today - very vivid, though i'm rapidly forgetting details...patti was very prevalent in this one, and we were all at work, except it wasn't at ol' exit 5 parkway - we were in a little schoolhouse or a church or something...nobody wanted to do any work - i was the only one doing anything...

*shrug*

cool - make your own south park character!

hmmm, the Cannabis As Living Medicine website disucsses pot and epilepsy -

"Treating Epilepsy with Marijuana

Some people with grand mal seizures say they can prevent their seizures entirely by smoking marijuana. Others, who suffer complex partial seizures, report that marijuana also curbs their symptoms and prevents loss of consciousness. Marijuana is not considered useful for treating petit mal or absence seizures and may even worsen them.

Some patients find that marijuana works in conjunction with other drugs they are taking. Others find that marijuana works best for them when it is used without other drugs. Either way, these epileptic patients have made marijuana a necessary part of their medical treatment.

People using marijuana to control epilepsy should be aware that withdrawal from any medication that controls seizures may leave you more susceptible to the seizures. Marijuana is no exception. Patients with epilepsy are advised to exercise caution when using oral THC because there is not sufficient knowledge about the convulsive or anti-convulsive properties of the single compound."

another page with pros and cons is at www.marijuanainfo.org

been doing some research on the epilepsy and related stuff from my last trip to the hospital:

eMedicine's article on status epilepticus had some interesting points - "In the US: Approximately 50,000-200,000 cases of status epilepticus occur per year (using traditional epidemiologic definitions). The overall mortality rate is about 20%" - holy shit, my life was seriously at risk there...

another interesting comment was "Psychogenic seizures may, at times, be indistinguishable from GCSE by appearance alone." i suppose this is why i've been set up with the psychiatrist, to make sure it's not a psychological thing, though i doubt it is since they've seen activity on the EEG...

neal suggested marijuana for treating my seizures (big surprise there, eh?) but Discovery Health says "individuals can lower their risk of seizures by: · avoiding excess alcohol · avoiding illegal drugs, especially marijuana and cocaine" - don't think i'll be rolling one anytime soon...

Find your emotion!

You are 40% evil! [?]

You're more good than evil, but not by much. You've drank straight from the carton of milk in the refrigerator, and maybe kicked the neighbor's cat, but you're still good. Kinda.

How Gay Are YOU? [?]

hrm, haven't figured out how it came up with that number, i'd say i'm more than 70% lesbonian....

Which Kiss Are You?

You're GLUTTONY! Food is good. You love to stuff yourself, and you may become over weight, if you already aren't. You like to endulge. You're represented by the color orange.

wow, big suprise there...

_E_ndulge?!? don't people proofread their shit anymore these days?!?

a few links regarding the gamma knife thang:

http://www.medicine.indiana.edu/

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2002/06/020605073153.htm

http://www.irsa.org/publications/BrainTalkV6_2.pdf

http://www.iupui.edu/~neurosur/GammaKnife.html

http://www.clarian.org/clinical/gammaknife/index.jhtml?print=true

went to work today, but i'm still not quite right in the head - damn, that was a bad seizure. and i'm not going to get stressed about the fact that cheryl's on vacation this week - teressa can do some of the fucking covers. i guess i pissed her off by telling her not to send non-work-related emails to my work email, but instead to send them to my crapmail.com account - i think it's fucking ridiculous that the damned department supervisor sends out chain letters and shit at work. oh well.

a few interesting links:

how stuff works has an article on how mri works...

cdcovers.cc has over 90,000 album covers you can download for cds ya burn...

book crossing.com encourages ya to leave books lying around for people to pick up and read - you can see where your books end up by going to the website...

rxlist.com has a list of the top 200 prescriptions given out...

this is REALLY frustrating - i'm still not back to "normal"...i'm still having problems communicating - the words just aren't there...i probably shouldn't go back to work tomorrow, but i can't really afford not to either...

the indy star had an article on the front page of the paper today about a new kind of surgery for epilepsy. they use gamma radiation instead of a knife. the idea of surgery terrifies me, but i really can' t be having seizures like this last one - it was _BAD_.

well, i'm still recovering from a seizure i had on tuesday - spent a couple of days in the hospital. think i may switch neurologists - i like dr. mohan, but dr. diokno is pretty cool too. she says i may be a surgical candidate, which scares the hell out of me, but if it stops my seizures i suppose it'd be worth it. i'm going to see a psychiatrist next week - mom told them when she took me to the hospital how i'd been stressed with work and such lately - maybe this will help. these past few days are a blur - i can't remember going to work sunday and monday.

so, what's better? cute little website - 2 items pop up, and ya vote for which one is better...for example: Funyuns (with a pic of a Funyuns bag) vs. Lesbian Subtext (a pic from Xena...) well, of course i'm goin with the lesbians! *8-)

Which CNN personality am I?

Find out which CNN
personality YOU are!

err...okay...i guess...of course, i'm more an msnbc gal myself, don't watch much cnn...

here's another weird website - this guy posts all his walmart purchases...

think i just found my next computer...NOT!

how appropriate! the Ya-Ya Name Generator tells me my name is Princess Chocolate Lover. *8-)

woo hoo, i'm a TotalFarker now!

random pet peeve - so, the us postal service has designed these really cool stamps featuring each of the 50 states...they've got a postcard-type theme to them, each highlighting something spiffy about the state...problem is, you can only buy them in sheets of all of the 50 states. 'scuse me, i'm from indiana, why do i want to buy 50 stamps that say "Greetings From"...and only one of them's actually from the state i'm in? i don't know anybody in wyoming, and i'm not there, so why the fuck do i want a "greetings from wyoming" stamp? they oughta sell books of the individual states in addition to selling the 50 stamp sheets...

holy shit! i'm perusing the earlham website to see if i can get an update on jesse and find an article about Michael C. Hall, who graduated a year before i should've. Ya know, I always thought that guy on Six Feet Under looked familiar - hey dumbass, you went to college with him!!! perhaps i just didn't make the connection cuz he's not an uptight gay funeral director in real life...

in packing up, i found my journal from 1995 - in it i see that mid june of that year was when i went to court for the name change...almost 7 years ago...in some ways it doesn't seem that long ago, but at the same time, i feel as though i've been just plain ol' Lori Beth for longer than 7 years...back then i was soooo happy about my job at Thrifty Nickel (HA! scary to think at one point i actually did like the place!) and debating over whether or not to go back to Earlham in the fall (NOPE! didn't happen!) and muddling through my long distance relationship with Julie. sheesh, now THAT seems like a long time ago!

another trip down memory lane - looking up stuff on His Name Is Alive, i realized that the concert I went to in Chicago to see with Jesse Kahn was 9/14/96 - almost 6 years ago...what a cool concert....

went to the library today to pick up some books i'd reserved, and to return that crappy drew barrymore bio, "Little Girl Lost" - she shoulda waited a few years before writing this book, i think....didn't even finish it, that's how bad it was...

so, today i picked up:
"The adventures of Captain Underpants : an epic novel" - just hafta check it out, perhaps it'll give me something to talk with matt or paige about...

"Ani DiFranco : righteous babe" - what can i say, i've been in a biography sort of mood lately...tops on the list of late is michael j. fox's autobiography...

"Lies across America : what our historic sites get wrong" - one of those in the QPB catalog that looks interesting, but i don't have the cash for it right now...

"The worlds of Nam June Paik" - this book FINALLY came in - i had it on hold at the library since september! Paik's so fucking cool...i'm thinking i might be framing some of the pages from the book i bought on ebay long ago (in a foreign language) and using that as the starting point of decorating my room...

eek, my room! i have to get back to the apartment and get more packing done - this is the weekend of the big move!

point to ponder: do chickens have nipples? i mean, ya see packages of chicken breasts in the grocery store, but ya don't ever see nipples on them breasts...do they have nipples? if so, where? if not, why not?

more vivid dreams...what's going on with my subconscious lately?!?!? it's rather cool, actually, to have dreams and be able to remember them...today's dream had me in the "er" - the television show, that is...i was working closely with dr. weaver, following her around and doing whatever she told me to do...aunt sherry was there too, as a nurse...aunt joan was there, as a patient...at some point i was puking my guts out - my pills were coming up, undigested...hrm.

ya know what sucks? i got some stuff at kroger the other day while i was at work - having a bitch of a headache and ready to claw my eyeballs out of my head cuz of some sort of allergy....when i rang up the groceries, i got $10 cash back...unfortunately, i wasn't totally aware of my account balance...so i was $5.01 short...for this the bank charges me a $28.00 overdraft fee! just so happens the next day i made a $150 deposit, as well as my regular payroll deposit going in....grrrr....one freakin day....

more weirdness in the dream department...this time i joined the navy...i reported for duty - at an elementary school of sorts - and found out i was the oldest one there...they gave me the keys to the ship (which looked remarkably like keys to a chevrolet) and told me not to lose them...when my shipmates arrived, i felt horribly out of place, far too old to be with all of these youngsters...the number 19 was very vivid in my dream as well, tho i'm not sure why....

*shrug*

i finally got an article posted to fark! people usually send the same links that i find and beat me to it or whatever, but not this time...

was a bit dismayed to see that the headline i submitted had been tinkered with - i had submitted "World's tiniest baby goes home - weighed 10 oz at birth, now weighs as much as the meat in 17.6 Quarter Pounders" - going for that math geek humor...they tacked on "although not as tasty" at the end...still funny, i guess...

cool! halcy's blogging now too!

cute link josh sent me: Boy The Bear's Age Gauge

urgh i hate moving!! and i've procrastinated about calling movers, i'll have to get on it! thecityofindianapolis.com has a page of movers, as does citysearch - i've emailed ed sherman for a quote, but i suspect it'll be too much considering it's such short notice...hell, i might hafta make bro hang on to my stuff for a week or two...

argh!

weeeeeeeiiird dreams lately...dunno what's goin on, but i've had very strange, very vivid dreams the past couple nights...last night, it was of buying a car...a used light blue volvo....bought it at a dealership, paid thousands of dollars for it - like eight grand or something...took it home (er, mom's - it's not home yet) and her brother tom was there...he mentioned he'd just sold his volvo (er, don't think he really has one in real life though)...he looked at it and said it was the one he'd just sold...when he found out i'd paid $8000 for it, he got pissed...angry as all hell...when i asked him why, he said they gave him $300 for the car...then we all stormed off to the dealership and insisted on a car that was really worth $8000...they had a saturn, with all the options, pwr moonroof, kickass stereo, and these UGLY green leather seats...the seats were horrid, but the rest of the car was good, so i took it...

what the hell's that one mean? why the hell'd i have a dream with uncle tom in it? why'd i dream of getting a volvo? why were the seats in the saturn green leather? those were the most vivid parts of the dream, i'm sure they mean something....

then tonight's dream (okay, it's technically this afternoon's dream, i guess) was about donna's wedding...it was at her parents mansion (mansion?!?) and it was this huge week-long occasion type thing, i was spending the week there with her helping her to get ready...guess that medieval dress idea was out the window, she was all gussied up in this white satin number, and was really pissed off at her dad and mom...by the time the actual wedding rolled around, donna told me she didn't need me anymore and i could leave...ouch, i was so hurt. after the wedding, there was a stockholders meeting for the trader (yeah, there at the mansion) and it was announced that everyone was being fired...but they had some consolation gifts for us...badminton sets, heads of lettuce, richard simmons videos.....at the end of the dream, i found out that donna was 5 months pregnant, and i was pissed at her cuz she hadn't told me - she hid it very very well, not telling ANYONE...she went around gloating about the fact that she was pregnant in her wedding dress and nobody noticed...


???!!!???!!!???!!!???!!!???!!!???!!!???!!!???!!!???

not a clue what the hell any of it means, but it's all been very vivid...something's goin on in this head o mine...

so, the indy 500's this weekend...i'm pulling for sarah fisher - she's a hottie! *8-)

got this msg on the list today:

~~~~~~
"For anyone interested in participating in this year's SF Pride Parade "Be Yourself, Change the World":

The SF Gay Pride parade is 5 weeks away, and the World's Biggest Vulva (which won 1st place in last year's parade) NEEDS you to make it happen this year!!!

First of all, we need help in spreading the word, (sending out to your favorite lists, egroups and friends) to gather the women of the Bay Area in solidarity of the Worlds Biggest Vulva (a beautiful 8-foot vagina float). This is about PRIDE, LOVE, and FUN.
We also need organizers, artists, help finding sponsors, performers, any thing you can think of to make the float bigger and better than last year.

Whether you are Butch, Femme, Techno, Mechanical, Bi, Curious, Horny, Hellacious, whatever... We need EVERY ONE OF YOU. Get involved, I promise you will have the time of your life. Don't delay, send an email to pussypower79@yahoo.com today!!!
~~~~~~

ya know, i really need to get to san francisco for this thing one of these years....*8-)

hrm, would sending a resume to the star be akin to selling my soul to the devil?

Q: What do a nearsighted gynecologist and a puppy have in common?
A: A wet nose.


*8-)

*bleargh*

here's an article on donating vehicles for tax deductions...ugh, looking at the irs site makes me think there's more paperwork involved in this than i originally thought...

why do pharmaceutical companies have to be so damned difficult when it comes to giving patients information that they can understand? doc english gave me a new med - starlix - to help with the diabetes...so i go to the website and first thing i see is "This website is intended for non-US audiences." errr, what the hell's the difference? so all this shit about the meds isn't true since i'm in the US? the prescribing info is in medicalese - i think i understand most, but not all, of it...

so, i've gotten a little CD swapping group together - there will be 5 of us for the first one...i think i'm gonna use the guts of the last mix i made, with a few modifications - it's a total "i've got a crush and i'm happy and perky and ready to dance and boink" sort of mix...

tonight was my first night back as a volunteer at IYG - it went very well. i've missed serving as a mentor and sounding board to gay/lesbian youth. getting involved again feels good.

found out that tyler (the spouse of iyg's executive director, rob connoley) went to the earlham school of religion and has co-written a book - several people at IYG talked about it and how good it was, i'll hafta check it out...

A few random facts culled from the internet...
1. Rubber bands last longer when refrigerated.
2. Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynamite.
3. There are 293 ways to make change for a dollar.
4. The average person's left hand does 56% of the typing.
5. A shark is the only fish that can blink with both eyes.
6. There are more chickens than people in the world.
7. Two-thirds of the world's eggplant is grown in New Jersey.
8. The longest one-syllable word in the English language is "screeched."
9. On a Canadian two dollar bill, the flag flying over the Parliament building is an American flag.
10. All of the clocks in the movie "Pulp Fiction" are stuck on 4:20.
11. No word in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, or purple.
12. "Dreamt" is the only English word that ends in the letters "mt".
13. All 50 states are listed across the top of the Lincoln Memorial on the back of the $5 bill.
14. Almonds are a member of the peach family.
15. Winston Churchill was born in a ladies' room during a dance.
16. Maine is the only state whose name is just one syllable.
17. There are only four words in the English language which end in "dous": tremendous, horrendous, stupendous, and hazardous.
18. Los Angeles' full name is "El Pueblo de Nuestra Senora la Reina de los Angeles de Porciuncula"
19. A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.
20. An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
21. Tigers have striped skin, not just striped fur.
22. In most advertisements, the time displayed on a watch is 10:10.
23. Al Capone's business card said he was a used furniture dealer.
24. The characters Bert and Ernie on Sesame Street were named after Bert the cop and Ernie the taxi driver in Frank Capra's "It's a Wonderful Life".
25. A dragonfly has a life span of 24 hours.
26. A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds.
27. A dime has 118 ridges around the edge.
28. It's impossible to sneeze with your eyes open.
29. The giant squid has the largest eyes in the world.
30. In England, the Speaker of the House is not allowed to speak.
31. The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.
32. Mr. Rogers is an ordained minister.
33. The average person falls asleep in seven minutes.
34. There are 336 dimples on a regulation golf ball.
35. "Stewardesses" is the longest word that is typed with only the left hand.

alrighty, well, it's been brought to my attention that the Captain Underpants funny name changer posted to fark wasn't totally accurate (guess i didn't read all the words - okay, i can see "butt" being in there, but "dick"? errr....)

so, for the OFFICIAL name changer, you can go to the Captain Underpants web site and go to the Professor Poopypants Name Change-o-Chart 2000 - there i'm listed as Booger Toiletshorts...think i like Loopy Monkeyshorts better....

'tis amazing what you can learn on fark...

Follow the instructions to find your funny name. The following is an excerpt from a children's book, "Captain Underpants and the Perilous Plot of Professor Poopypants", by Dave Pilkey. The evil Professor forces everyone to assume new names...

Use the third (3rd) letter of your first name to determine your NEW first
name:
a = stinky
b = lumpy
c = buttercup
d = gidget
e = crusty
f = greasy
g = fluffy
h = stiffy
i = poopsie
j = pussy
k = flunky
l = boobie
m = pinky
n = zippy
o = goober
p = fishy
q = slimy
r = loopy
s = snotty
t = juicy
u = dorkey
v = tiny
w = cootie
x = skipper
y = dinky
z = zsa-zsa

Use the second (2nd) letter of your last name to determine the first half of your NEW last name:
a = diaper
b = toilet
c = giggle
d = bubble
e = monkey
f = barf
g = lizard
h = waffle
i = poop
j = girdle
k = potty
l = liver
m = banana
n = rhino
o = burger
p = hamster
q = toad
r = gizzard
s = pizza
t = gerbil
u = button
v = pickle
w = chuckle
x = tofu
y = gorilla
z = gootus

Use the fourth (4th) letter of your last name to determine the second half of your NEW last name:
a = head
b = mouth
c = face
d = ass
e = tush
f = breath
g = pants
h = shorts
i = lips
j = honker
k = butt
l = brain
m = dick
n = nose
o = starfish
p = biscuits
q = toes
r = buns
s = fanny
t = sniffer
u = sprinkles
v = kisser
w = squirt
x = humperdinck
y = brains
z = juice

Thus, for example, George W. Bush's new name is Goober Chickenshorts.To be fair, we should publish Al Gore's new
name, too: Lumpy Burgertush.

heh heh heh....and i guess that makes me Loopy Monkeyshorts...

a-ha basks in renewed popularity - hrm, just might hafta kazaa some of their new stuff and check it out...

sheesh, the article says it's been 17 years since "take on me" - that's impossible!!!

The World RPS Society - cool site!

this looks like a cool compilation...i need to get involved in some of these cd mix swapping clubs...or hell, perhaps i should just start one of my own! *8-)

well, i finally managed to get a track from kazaa i've been hunting down for a while now...it's the 10,000 maniacs version of the r.e.m. song "(don't go back to) rockville" - it was a bonus track on the cd single for "candy everybody wants", and it's one of those rare instances that the remake is as good as (if not better than) the original...i can't seem to locate my copy of the cd, it's out of print, and i've had the damned song in my head for a couple of weeks now...guess it's time to burn a new cd - but what else to put on the disc?

"Speaking of dildos..."

er, that's certainly not something i expected to hear outta MY MOTHER....*gasp*

got a new car - well, i'm on my way to getting a new car....'tis a 97 saturn, found it at eastgate chrysler. just have to meet up with the credit union to do all the paperwork and go to the dealership - whoo hoo! also need to figure out what to do about the old car - pretty sure i'm gonna just donate it for the tax write-off...

meanwhile, i've totally fucked up my sleep schedule - don't think i'll be going in to work tonight. i'm sure kim's calling me everything but a white girl...oh well, shit happens, and if i have the personal time, i'm gonna take it...

laa dee daa....

hmm, a few charities taking car donations: the julian center, the american lung association, prevent blindness indiana, and volunteers of america - haven't found any specifically queer organizations, but i might do some asking around...

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

ya know, it's all my fucking fault - i cursed myself. i just HAD to be a smart ass...when i paid off my car, i said that NOW would be the time for it to fall apart. and wouldn't ya know it, i blew up the fucking engine tonight on my drive home from work! argh! so, i'm getting onto 465 from 69 and i hear a loud noise and feel a shaking...then a big *POP!* and it sounds like something falls off of the car. i see smoke coming out from under the hood. when i pull over, i pop the hood and see FLAMES - yup, my car's on fire! so i get a can of root beer out of my car, the only liquid i had, and put the flames out. a guy pulled over to see if he could help - turns out he's a mechanic at Hare Chevrolet - and he tells me i've blown a rod. i know i was due for an oil change, i was gonna get that done this weekend - guess i don't have to worry about that now - arrrrrgh! paid the fucker off april 11, the thing blows up less than a month later! the aaa guy doesn't think it was a blown rod though, he said it's unlikely that it'd catch fire in that instance, but who the fuck knows...both the guys sounded like they knew what they were talking about. *shrug*

so now, what do i do?

don't think i wanna drop one or two grand in it with a new engine - but i could probably get a couple grand out of it for a trade-in. kelley blue book says that the private party value of it in fair condition is $2,150 - says that the Trade-In value is $1,090 - with all the "push...pull...drag it in" for $2,000 trade ins i see in the wheels & deals and such, i think that's a definite thing to consider.

another thought is donating it to charity and writing it off on my taxes - would that be a better idea? *shrug* fuck if i know...

argh, how fucking annoying! *whine complain piss moan grumble*

woohoo! got my camera today at compusa! the thing's so little, i'm just amazed! haven't checked out the pix with it yet, but i'll get around to it eventually...

wow - you really CAN find everything with google!

*8-)

happy 189th birthday søren kierkegaard!

went and saw Life or Something Like It with donna today - 'twas an okay movie. not as horrible as roger ebert's review, but i can understand his disappointment. and angelina should've definitely done a nude scene or twelve in this movie, but she didn't. *whimper*

okay, enough of this work crap, i'm goin home!! *8-)

well, it's now supposedly "national digital imaging week"...i've got stuff to list on ebay, but no digital camera to get pix...i want this digital camera from kodak....this puppy's three hundred bucks though, and it's not like i've got lots of cash sitting around....but argh, i want it!!!

part of me says forget about it and get the one at walgreens this week that's selling for twenty bucks, but i want the pricey one, dangit!

*shrug* who knows what i'll end up doing....

so greg went gallavanting off to michigan this weekend, leaving us short a player for mah jongg....so dale and mommy and i went to the movies instead - Spider-Man. pretty good - i really like tobey maguire. the movie started off kinda slow, but it picked up. kirsten dunst is a hottie too - loved that gratuitous scene in the rain with her perky little nips busting out of the flimsy shirt she was wearing. *8-)

just finished reading Find Me - the book from Rosie O'Donnell....my one word review - "HUH?" it certainly wasn't what i expected it to be - a memoir. there was a bit of her history in it, but most of the book dwelled on her obsession with a pregnant teen across the country. it was just very strange.

seem to be on a memoir kick lately, tho it hasn't been intentional...the last three books i've read have been autobiographical in nature - Patient by Ben Watt, Lucky Man by Michael J. Fox and then Rosie's book....Lucky Man was certainly the best of the bunch...i also got Drew Barrymore's autobiography from the library, but i'm not sure that i'll read that one next or not...

off to get reorientated at IYG, so that i can resume being a volunteer...think it'll do me good to get involved again - i just have to keep in mind that this isn't the same IYG as the one i volunteered for a few years back.

in other news, pooky and i are shooting for June 1 as our moving date - that is, i'm moving back to mom's and he's moving into my apartment. think it'll work out well for both of us - i'll give him a good deal on the air conditioners and such and he won't have to worry about buying some and installing them and all that crap...i've got to figure out how it is i'm going to arrange things - will i be able to fit it all in here at mom's? i'll be taking over pooky's old room, aka the garage...not sure if i wanna try cramming it all in or just saying fuck it and going ahead with a storage unit. *shrug* got less than a month to figure it out tho!

weird weekend. think i must've had a seizure thursday, i was just really out of it all day thursday and friday, and i had a bitch of a headache. *shrug* why can't shit like this happen when i'm AT the freakin' doctor's office?

i think the new work schedule will work out well, once my body gets acclimated to it. it's nice to actually have some time to just veg out on weekdays - i'm not staring at the clocking, thinking "okay, if i go to sleep RIGHT NOW, i can get 7 hours and 42 minutes of sleep" and so on...all last week i woke up before my alarm went off. i just wish i could catch a bus up here or something - i really should not be driving. kim said i could catch a ride with her, but she stays till 4:30, sometimes later and i wouldn't want to be a burden on her anyways.

urgh, back to work....

mom & i are gonna have dinner from hardee's tonight...they're donating part of all sales tonight to a little girl named meghann...she needs money for brain surgery - a hemispherectomy to remove half of her brain to control her seizures.

Meaghann Muncy, 9, of Dillsboro, Indiana has a rare brain abnormality called Hemimegalencephaly (HME). She has multiple life-threatening seizures daily that traditional treatments can't control. Meg's last hope of relief is a surgery removing the right half of her brain. Johns Hopkins has two surgeons who specialize in Hemispherectomy but Hopkins will not accept the family's insurance. The expected cost of her surgery is $150,000 and must be paid in full before Meg can have surgery.

pretty weird....

gonna be arby's for dinner this evening...the corporate site, arbys.com, sucks, but one of their franchises has arbysrestaurant.com and they actually have a menu that tells ya what's on each of the sandwiches and such. getting everyone to agree on a place can be difficult sometimes - "does this sandwich have such and such on it" blah blah blah...

these danged fast food restaurants need to learn the difference between a menu and a nutrition guide - when i click menu i don't wanna know that the sandwich i'm thinking of has 2849 calories, i just wanna know if there's mayo on it.

can i just say one thing?

grumpy bosses suck.

ya know, a sure fire way to ensure i STAY in a bad mood is to tell me "Lose the attitude". errr, ever stop to think that maybe i have a REASON to be pissed off?

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urgh, can't sleep. shoulda gotten that Rx filled from the neuro doc, but i'm waiting for a coupon in the mail from the drug company so that it's free. yup, need to be pinching those pennies. mom's helped me go through all the medical bills from this year - now that I'm on the Crappy Insurance Plan with deductibles and copayments and shit, i need someone to explain this stuff to me - never had to deal with it before. i've had 3 trips to the hospital this year - the first for my seizure when i was at home and the ambulance came and got me, the second when i was having the chest pains and they diagnosed gastric reflux, and the third one being the biggie where i spent several days as an inpatient getting a video eeg done. so we pore through the mound of bills and certifications and benefit notices and find that my portion - what i have to pay now - comes to $1800. ouch. i'm really pissed. at a couple of people - the h.r. person from work that should've worked her ass off to find us new insurance that wouldn't fuck us over like this one. and i'm pissed at the neuro doc and the people at community hospital that postponed my video eeg a few times - had we done it when it was originally scheduled LAST YEAR, i would pay NOTHING for it. now i'm looking at eighteen hundred bucks worth of bills. argh. another thing that pisses me off - i've got the medical savings account thing through work, but how in the hell do they expect us to estimate our medical expenses for a WHOLE YEAR? i think 6 months would be much more reasonable. as it is this year, i have them take $50 out of every paycheck - $1300 for the year. well, i've more than covered that in the first quarter! well, thank god there's that $2000 maximum on my policy - once i hit two grand, they'll pay 100% - i figure maybe i should ask the docs for any tests that may want next year and go ahead and get 'em done THIS year. hrm, is 29 too early for a mammogram? might as well get my $$$'s worth, eh?

alrighty, i'll quit whining for a millisecond and talk happy news - i went to a vounteer meeting for IYG on wednesday, and it looks like i'll be hooking up with them again. i'm really looking forward to it. i have to keep in mind that this isn't the same IYG that i volunteered for 8 years ago, that there are a lot of changes and I can't expect everything to be sunshine and roses, but it still should be a good experience.

urgh, what a crappy day...tho a crappy weekend day still beats a crappy day at work. just seems that NOTHING's worked out today. took clara's xmas pkg (it's finally all packed up!) to the post office to find they'd already closed. tried going to paige's soccer game but had problems there and didn't make it. then i make the saturday afternoon mah jongg call and find that dale and greg are both out of town and won't be here tonight. urgh! and aunt flo's made a surprise return visit, and that's just made everything oooh so much more wonderful.

grr.

ben & jerry's has new flavors out - i tried the Karamel Sutra, from their Core Concoctions line....the description: "A core of soft caramel encircled by chocolate & caramel ice creams & fudge chips." - errr, guess i won't be checking my blood sugar any time soon....but DAMN it was gooooooood. Karamel Sutra is a very appropriate name.

cool - there's a website for kids featuring stuff from keith haring - haringkids.com

a link about temporal lobe epilepsy to check out later...

so, i overslept and didn't go to the pitch-in, oh well...*shrug* probably missed out on the woman of my dreams, i'm sure. looks like i might get some Dale Bondage tonight tho - he called and said he wants to go out, so if the stars all align perfectly and we both remain in the mood, we'll be hitting the town in a little while...

paige called tonight - she's such a little bundle of energy! i can barely get a word in edgewise when i talk to her, but that's okay. she's got a soccer game on the 20th at 2:30, so i think i'll be going to that....

the visit to the neuro was good - pretty much told me what i already know. there was seizure activity going on in my brain while i was in the hospital, in the left temporal lobe (as was diagnosed years ago) and the doc said my brain was "a bit slow" at times - go ahead, write your own joke there....

we're going to look into the possibility that my periods are having an effect on my seizures - hrm, the only reason i HAVE periods is cuz i take the Pill to regulate the damn thing. so, would i be better off not taking the Pill? i'm gonna track it for the next 3 months and then see the Dr. again - we'll see what happens. he also told me i need to be working on days and with a more consistent schedule. big surprise there...

hrmmm, this Colorgenics site is interesting...my results seemed pretty accurate...

yesterday was a good day off - beautiful weather, so i got some chores done. had a real nice visit at Crown Hill Cemetery - found chuck's grave, visited chris & jeff's, and my grandparent's and aunt's graves too. did quite a bit of walking, even decided to walk up to riley's tomb - quite a different experience than just driving up to it, man that hill's steep!! it was all good though. it's so peaceful there, i really like it.

while i was cleaning out my car at the car wash, i got approached by a guy - he was supposedly asking for directions, but he asked for more than that. don't know what possessed me, but i gave him my phone # when he asked for it. guess when/if he calls i'll have to explain that whole lesbian thing to him. *shrug*

going to see dr. mohan at 8:30 this morning, to get the results of my video eeg. hope there's some useful info there.

lots of stuff going on at work, i'll hafta post more about that later...

pitch-in tonight...i'm not really in the mood for it, but i suppose i should go....haven't heard from whatsherface since the last one - guess it's true about the getting a girlfriend and then dropping off the face of the planet thing....so much for those emails where she told me she really liked having me as a friend...er, friends generally check on ya when you send them an email that says you're going into the hospital to have your brain looked at...*shrug*

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