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All ducks aren't sweet and innocent and you prove that. You have a nasty streak.

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Which Evil Criminal are You?

hrm....

"Congratulations, you're Elizabeth Bathory!

Hailing from sunny Transylvania, your first blood-related incident was when you stabbed a servant girl in the face with a pair of scissors for underperforming. Some of the red spray landed on your hands, and as you washed it off, you noticed that it left your skin fresh and young looking. From then on you were convinced that the blood of young girls was the secret to eternal youth.

Rather than killing girls outright by stabbing them or slitting their throats, you enjoy torturing them for weeks on end by pricking them with needles or prodding with sharp spikes - all to bathe in their blood. You've killed over six hundred women, all without raising a peep from the authorities."

yeah, i'd say that's pretty damned evil....

You have a lot of mood swings. One day you're almond, the next you're crunchy. Make up your mind! People can always find you, since you're just that cool. Or not.

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Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
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hrm....avoidant/dependent/obsessive-compulsive...guess i AM crazy. *8-)

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**GRIN** and being on top of angelina would DEFINITELY be a good thing. ;-)

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hrmmm, i'm just gonna hafta check this movie out....*8-)

Hmmm... Tastes like Chicken. Am I chicken? Am I a frog? Am I human? All unfamiliar meats taste like chicken, and that's what I am, an unfamiliar meat. What Flavour Are You?

heh heh heh....

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so, which is scarier? www.whitehouse.gov or www.whitehouse.org?

oh cute! now ya can do mad libs online!!! just go to elibs.com and fill in the blanks!

yeah, okay, if ya couldn't tell, i'm a bit addicted to those internet "who am i" quizzes....*8-)

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hmmmm....do not desire what you do not need...perhaps i should heed this fortune cookie....

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your confession has been heard, you are absolved of your sins.

your sacrament of reconciliation is: 10 'hail mary's' and 15 'our father's'

heh heh heh...methinks this won't be the last time i be lustin'....*8-) guess it's a good thing i'm not catholic...

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heh heh heh, damned right!

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how excellent is that? *8-)

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woah, been making a few trips down memory lane this weekend...

first off, we see it announced that the movie e.t. will be re-released in theatres in march for it's 20th anniversary. twenty years ago!! i have very vivid memories of going to see that movie - i had been sick in the morning and didn't go to school, but by afternoon i was feeling better and so mom took me to see the movie at the general cinema at glendale mall, and she bought me reese's pieces for the movie as well. very happy childhood memory, playing hooky with mom and seeing such a cool movie. so now i'm encouraging mom to play hooky on the friday that it opens up so we can go see it again, twenty years later...

another childhood movie memory came to me as i was reading the tv guide - urban cowboy was on one of the cable channels today . i went and saw that one with my "dad" at the theater when it came out as well...i really didn't want to go see it (er, what 7 or 8 year old would?!?!?) but dad picked the movie and we went to see it...it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, but it certainly wasn't one i would've picked....

then tonight i'm reading on fark that Schoolhouse Rock is coming to dvd in august! way cool! conjunction junction, what's your function?

so that led to other memories of saturday morning tv in the 70's and early 80's...Timer, the yellow blob that encouraged us to make popsicles with toothpicks and ice cube trays...the one that sang about the joys of cheese -

“I hanker for a hunka,
A slab or slice or chunka
A snack that is a winner,
And yet won’t spoil my dinner,
I hanker for a hunka cheese… Yahoo!”

damn, i guess this impending 30th birthday's really making me feel old these days....*8-)

so, dj adam jay is spinning next weekend at tribe vibe 2k2, sponsored by nuvo newsweekly - also spinning will be DJ Lars (the german guy from the Real World London) but i'm more excited about seeing dj adam jay, personally....he's so cool!

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oh, okay, tom delonge is from blink 182...whoo hoo, big celebrity!

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(and can anyone tell me - who the fuck's tom delonge?!? *8-)

ya know, it's REALLY weird to look at my blog stats and see what's bringing people to my blog...lots of google searches for weird things...i mentioned dialysis and gary coleman in the same post at some point, and someone was looking for that...i get tons of hits from people looking for that damned cliche kitty, and quite a few from people looking for stuff by heywood banks...so, welcome to anyone that's just happened upon my blog - i'm the pillsbury dough dyke!

so, i'm looking around on amazon.com and see that they want me to sell some of the stuff i've bought from them! books, videos, cd's dvd's...8 items i've bought are still in their stock and so they want to offer up my used stuff to their customers...

the page says "Lori Beth, Make $155.28! Look! Selling your past purchases could earn you $155.28" - so i add up the value of the stuff using the current prices on amazon (i know they've lowered the prices on some of this stuff since i bought it) and it totals up to $221.83.

er, thanks but no thanks, amazon...i suppose that could be cool if ya buy something that really sucks, but i tend to know what i'm buying before i buy it online...

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

getting ready: family gathering tonight - my cousin Joanie's daughter Ashley is turning 16 - 16!!!! doesn't seem possible, the sweet little girl i used to babysit, a 16 year old! woah!!!

time to go!

*ROFL* what a cool site! the Random Title and Name Generator will give you a title if you don't have one or don't like the one you do have...

a few of my new titles...

Princess of Poon Appreciation, Lori Beth - and i DO appreciate the poon! *8-)

Duchess of Deviant Sexual Practices, Lori Gozer Beth - er, i think i'll refrain from comment here....

Baroness of Cow Tipping, Miss Lori Beth - moo

Kahuna of The Meritorious Order of Wieners, Lori Irene Beth - not just any ol' weiner, a meritorious one!

Lesser Sorceress of Speed Bumps, Lori "Lefty" Beth - hrm, i like "Lefty"

Associate Speaker of No Pants, Mrs. Lori Beth - how appropriate, since most of the time i'm running around in my boxer shorts...

Superintendent of Cornfed Heifers, Mrs. Lori Beth - appropriate, being a Hoosier and all....

Funkmistress of Stating The Obvious, Lori Fusion Beth - yeah, i'm a Funkmistress!

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

kazaaing: got that damned kylie minogue song in my head...how ironic, it's called "can't get you out of my head"...pretty catchy tune...urgh, i have gigabytes of mp3 files on mom's computer, i supposed i should start zipping the shit up and burning it to disc...

pondering: time to make the trip to the grocery....i know i was thinking of very important stuff i needed to get, now i'm drawing a total blank...*shrug*

freaking: so, i went in to work tonight cuz we had a bunch of people call in this week (the distinct disadvantage to getting a flu shot is that when everyone else is sick, you aren't and get to do all the freakin' work) and we were sooooo behind, blah blah blah...so it feels like a wednesday night, but it's really thursday night (er, technically friday morning, i guess)...the good part to this is that i'll be getting sunday night off work...next week's a 3 day work week!! *8-) still confused as all hell though....just point me in the right direction, thanks...

a day of ups and downs...good stuff goin on, but i have a BITCH of a headache...

started off by getting a nice little pat on the back from my boss this morning, when she saw the amazing amount of ass i kicked workwise overnight...it's nice to be appreciated every once in a while...

then i went home and slept and woke up to a couple of messages - the neurologist FINALLY seems to have seen my side of things and they're gonna schedule my eeg at st v's, and i don't think i'll even have to switch doctors...lemme just cross my fingers that they don't schedule it during a week someone else's already claimed for vacation...

then there was a message from doc english's office, i'd called her to get the results of my dilantin level, done a couple of weeks ago...talked to elke, the nurse, and she said the level's a little low ~ 8.3 when it should be 10 to 20 ~ and the doc's upping my dosage of dilantin...

check my email and find a "big honkin *SMOOCH*" from Shavon - i'd given her a few tips on how to sell stuff on ebay and they seem to have worked! like i said, it's nice to be appreciated every once in a while...*8-)

my tax refund was deposited in the bank today - whoo hoo! not too bad, i called telefile late saturday night, feb 16, and the money was in my account by wednesday, feb 27...now i can commence paying bills...whoo hoooo!

okay, enough fun at work, time to get outta here!!!

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errrr...spunky & feminine? i think i'll have to retake the test after i see a few episodes of the show - i had to make a few guesses....

hrm, guess i really am a honky! ;-)


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work sucks. nothing particularly horrendous about it, it just seems that everyone's in a shitty mood and nobody wants to be here - makes it rather difficult to keep a positive attitude...*shrug*

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dale & greg are both sick, so no mah jongg tonight. *8-( amazing what creatures of habit we are - i really look forward to hanging out with them on saturday nights.

so instead, i'm sitting here googlewhacking - i've come up with three in just a few minutes...

epiglottis marinade
sphygmomanometric poem
spongiform fettuccini

yes, it's true - i was the sort of dork that sat around and read the dictionary as a kid, too....*8-)

hrm - my pagan name, as given to me by the Pagan Name Generator, is Myst Song Bear - not bad.... *8-)

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i've signed up with blogsnob, so i can get a look at others blogs and vice versa - seen some interesting stuff thus far - check it out!

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wow! a website to create a fart!

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cool!!!

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Q. What is blue and doesn't fit any more?
A. A dead epileptic.

*rofl* 'tis amazing what you can find whilst googlewhacking...

breaktime at work...perhaps i'll suck on a nipple...

*8-) okay, it's not a REAL nipple - i got a valentine's package from clara, and in package was a tin of "pert peppermint nipples" and "extra naughty peppermint peckers" - definitely a hit here at work! *8-) i suppose this would be a sexual harrassment suit waiting to happen at any other place of employment, but everybody here was excited and ready to try 'em. *8-)

well well well - it's been an eventful week.

too bad i don't remember most of it.

had a seizure tuesday, before i was supposed to go to work. when i didn't show up, kim called. apparently i'd told her i had a seizure or was having a seizure, she called melissa & clare and they called an ambulance. i didn't know how to open the door, so they broke one of the panes of glass to get in to me. (this is all what i've been told after the fact, i don't remember the slightest bit of it) i spent tuesday, wednesday and part of thursday in the hospital and now i'm staying with mom for the weekend. had to cancel my date with tonya on friday - major bummer. what's really scary is that i don't remember the beginning of the seizure or anything on tuesday - when i woke up in the hospital on wednesday i thought i missed a whole week at work! it was only two days though. i'm still not back to "normal" - dr. mohan switched me to dilantin, and i don't know if that's causing side effects or if it's just from the seizure being so bad.

i really need to get this shit taken care of.

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

working: alrighty, not RIGHT NOW...taking a break...

and of course now my mind has gone completely blank....urgh...lalalalalalalala!

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

pissing and moaning: argh, why oh why does tripod have to suck so much? damn, guess my cheap ass is going to have to actually PAY for a web site...trying to get the pic from friday night's date inserted in here and no matter which way i go about it, i get the stupid little tripod logo...the HTML fairy needs to drop by and help me out...for now, you'll just have to go to see the pic yerself - the photo is at http://lbthepdd.tripod.com/loripix/loritonya.jpg

pondering: looking around me, at the people in my life and my relationships with them...thinking about how some relationships will be changing in the coming days and weeks...i know i'm being vague right now ~ more to be revealed later...

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

kazaaing: Sarah McLachlan Remixed - hmmm, a canadian import...if it's good enough, i may just have to buy the damn thing...

plotting: okay, just how much stuff do i have to get done before i go on the big date tomorrow night? eeeek! finish cleaning house, clean out the car, blah blah blah....suppose that means it's time to get off the computer!!!

in cleaning out my emailbox, i've found a few links to check out later...

long ago, donna sent me a link to the entire script of that classic movie, Airplane! - have you ever seen a grown man naked?

the lyrics to laid, one of my favorite albums, by james...

tom & ray of car talk have a site at cars.com, and caroscopes, to tell you how compatible you are with your vehicle...apparently, i'm not really a toyota tercel sort of girl...

cliche kitty, the one that appears in all the photoshops on fark...

queer as folk: season 1, episode 18: watching this again on dvd, i realized i really liked the music this episode...so i'll hafta kazaa it sometime..."Horny" by Mousse T vs Hot N Juicy is stuck in my head right now...

satirewire.com

Converse Chuck Taylor All Stars (AKA "Chucks") web resources & jack's shoes & this site - hrm, those chucks with the flames are callin my name!!! low or high tops? hrmm...

music from tv commercials at songtitle.info...

illustrator resources - maybe i can learn something new to use at work...

eh, i guess those are the only links for now...'tis amazing how much crap i leave in my mailbox to look at later and then don't really need...

currently, lori is:

surfing: the hollywood bar & filmworks website - checking out the menu...have a date tomorrow night! we're going to see the wizard of oz - how cool is that?

kazaaing: i'm on a melissa etheridge kick right now...good thing i didn't believe donna when she told me kazaa was down!

cleaning: right now, i'm cleaning out the ol' email box...when my laundry's done, i'm heading home to clean the apartment...

pretty sad when you can get more information by trolling the net than you can by asking your doctor's office a few simple questions.

think it might be time to change neurologists - i don't feel comfortable with Community Hospital and having them responsible for giving me a video EEG to see if i'm a candidate for brain surgery when they've called me twice to cancel my tests because their equipment wasn't working. who's to say that the stuff will work when they DO get me in there for 3 days...and how can i possibly trust that the results they get will be worth anything? we won't even factor in the crappy care i got at the emergency room when my gall bladder screamed to be removed...what i know for sure is that i won't ever ask to be taken to community hospital in an emergency - i'll go to st. francis instead.

dr. mohan's been the first neurologist to ever even suggest the possibility of brain surgery, so i know i'm gonna need a second opinion anyways...perhaps i'll talk to dr. english and get her opinion on a good neurologist associated with a hospital other than community.

IUPUI - i saw dr. salanova years ago...perhaps i'll return to her...*shrug*

the st. vincent website had a description of the video eeg, which was more than i could ever get out of the people at JWM Neurology...

*sigh*

cool...tom tomorrow's taken to blogging...

current workplace conversation topic: whorehouses, and whether or not you have to make an appointment...

how the hell did that one come about? well, we were talking about robin's unlisted phone number getting wrong numbers and neal chimes in with how his phone number as a kid was one digit off from a whorehouse - why the hell does a whorehouse need a phone?!? was my question...thus the question about making reservations...

yeah, pretty scary, but i seem to be one of the more normal people around here....

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

surfing: the onion and modern humorist....in the midst of this hellacious week, i need a good laugh...

yawning: why i woke up at 2:30 today, i have no clue!

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

drying: ahh, just got out of a nice hot shower with some decent water pressure! been having difficulties with the hot water lately....not today tho!

reading: started on A Girl Named Zippy : Growing Up Small in Mooreland, Indiana by Haven Kimmel this morning...this chick went to the school of religion at earlham...you know she's from a small town when she calls muncie a big big city...as for the michael thomas ford books (That's Mister Faggot To You and It's Not Mean If It's True) - didn't even finish them...he's certainly no david sedaris...

amazing drive in to work this evening...cruising 465 as the sun was setting...the sky was all sorts of colors - face a different direction, see colors you didn't see before...it was hard to keep my eyes on the road, a huge chunk of sky was magenta and it set a tint over everything ahead of me....for a few minutes, at least...

now it's all dark - cuz i've moved into the hellhole that is my job. urgh. off to work i go!!

hrmmm, perhaps i should set up one of those amazon tip jars here in my blog to collect money for the video eeg and potential brain surgery....

the book _Nickel and Dimed_ i just finished reading brought up an interesting point - on page 207, it states, "The National Labor Relations Act of 1935 makes it illegal to punish people for revealing their wages to one another, but the practice is likely to persist until rooted out by lawsuits, company by company." it also includes a footnote referencing a 7/28/00 article from the New York Times, "The Biggest Company Secret; Workers Challenge Employer Policies on Pay Confidentiality".

i mention this because we've been told before at work that discussing what we make with our co-workers is grounds for immediate dismissal. this policy seems to be counter to the law....

i've got a bunch of stuff i've been meaning to put up on ebay - assorted bargains and shit i picked up after xmas...kroger had those tech deck mini skateboards - before xmas they were $3.99. i got them afterwards for $.10 each...i did some research on the tech deck website and found the things listed there for $6.99! so, i've got about a dozen or so, maybe i'll put 'em up in lots of 3 or 4 and see what i get....got lots of other shit i'll have to put on ebay in october/november, before xmas - bumbles, the abominable snowman from rudolph the red nosed reindeer, as a bobblehead...sold for $10 - paid $2 for 'em...i have entirely too much stuff - but it's so damned easy to see something on sale and say "hey, lemme throw that in a box and in a few years sell it for ten times what i paid"...i am such the pack-rat.

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

surfing: the trading spaces website...what a cool show...

baking: apple-cinnamon-raisin muffins - gotta get rid of the huge stash of pillsbury products i've purchased recently...

watching: listening, really...the late night rerun of dateline nbc is on

cleaning: the dishes are soaking in the sink, and i'm getting ready to take the trash out...

so i'm thinking of coming up with some sort of Lori Index - a list of what i'm currently (or very recently) doing/reading/watching/surfing/eating/buying/whatever....it can certainly tell ya what sort of mood i'm in if i've got the really depressing shit in the CD player or whatever...

so here goes for now - what i've been currently doing...categories are subject to change at any given millisecond...

CURRENTLY, LORI IS:

kazaa'ing: _This Way_ - Jewel - urgh, that "standing still" song is trapped in my head - get it out!!!

reading: just finishing up _Nickel and Dimed: On (Not) Getting By in America_ by Barbara Ehrenreich...next on the list of books i've recently gotten from the library: _That's Mr. Faggot to You : Further Trials from My Queer Life_ by Michael Thomas Ford

eating: some mahjongg leftovers - one of our usual dinners - KFC!

surfing: popshop.com - getting ideas for stuff to download from kazaa...

listening: Jewel & Melissa Etheridge doing "You Can Sleep While I Drive", freshly ripped from kazaa....

hrmm...that pretty much sums up what i'm doing at the moment...

'nother night at the computer, kazaa-ing away...found another website, popshop.com, that horribly overcharges for cd's of stuff that can easily be gotten from kazaa for free, of songs i just absolutely loved back in the day and now have completely forgotten about...so i'm infringing on a number of copyrights...but wait, i owned those songs years and years ago, so this is just making my perfectly legal backup copy, right? right? *wink wink*

just woke up from a STRANGE dream...i had a baby, and i was in pittsburgh...a very little, just barely born baby...the thing fit in my hand...and here i was in charge of it and was completely clueless as to what to do...*shrug* i think the pittsburgh thing comes from my watching the whole first season of queer as folk over the past couple of weeks...but the baby thing? no idea...

games night went well tonight - it was kind of weird without christine...angela's taking over, but she couldn't make it tonight so i was in charge - eeek!...started off kind of slow, but then more people arrived - i'd consider it a success...played euchre and catchphrase (the electronic version i bought is pretty cool!) and renee brought some card game i'd never seen before, illuminati...apparently i won, but i'm still not sure how...i suspect it's much like mah jongg - takes ya a long time to learn all the intricacies and such, but once ya do, it's addictive...

so i guess i won't miss out on the suckage that is work next week - doc's office called, they've got to reschedule my video eeg. had to cancel it again because the equipment's broken. they sure as fuck aren't instilling a lot of confidence in me here...

work: ugh. so we found out that they screwed up in telling us what our raises were. so i go from being not too disappointed to just irritated as shit. can't trust a thing they say these days, whether it be the insurance stuff or raises or whatever....they're getting really good at taking what little office morale was left and putting it right into the crapper....

"You are smart, but you're not right in the head." - yup, there's the evaluation of me provided by my boss today. thanks kim! *8-)

well...what started out as a majorly sucky night at work is becoming somewhat better...we're starting two new publications this week, and there's been NO pre-planning done and all hell's broken loose....and i've been "promoted" (if we dare call it that) to doing covers, yet they don't tell me half the shit i need to know to get the job done...ARGH! start work at 6:00 - by 6:07 i'm ready to pull out the uzi and blow people away....not a good way to start the day...

got a bit better when we weazeled donna into going to K-roger to make a ben & jerry's run...yummy! b&j always make things better! triple caramel chunk - yummmmmmy!

i just wanna fast forward the work schedule a few weeks ahead so that we can be over the growing pains and settled into a regular schedule...well, at least i get to miss the fun next week - i'm getting my head checked!!!

weird dreams today...dreamt i went to work and cassandra was there, fully recovered from her stroke...*sigh* if only that one would come true...sheesh, now i've forgotten the others...they were even weirder...oh well.

so, at work yesterday we found out about our raises. i was all prepared to be majorly disappointed - and then i wasn't. i'm okay with the raise i got. yeah, it'd be great if it was bigger, but in this economy i'm gonna be glad i have a fuckin job, let alone one that gives me a raise....

monday's fast approaching...i'm doing the video eeg thing then...urgh.

time to get ready for work!!!

(if ya can't watch on sundays, be like me and get yer cool-ass mom to tape it for ya...) *8-)

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ya know, i think i'm becoming addicted to these little quizzes.... *8-)

alrighty...so, back to the suckage that is work...the insurance is gonna cost more and cover less, leaving me to ponder if i can afford to have tests done that the neurologist wants...and then kim calls a little meeting to give us some info about our raises - she STILL doesn't have the paperwork to process for our raises, nor does she know how much $ we'll be getting. but one thing she DOES know - we'll get half of our raise now, half in july. err, 'scuse me? yeah, so basically they're gonna keep 25% of our raise - although who knows, maybe in july they'll just tell us to fuck off. so half my brain is ready to blow the fucking place up, the other half is telling me to chill and be thankful that i HAVE a job and that it's not minimum wage, and that i'm not getting a pay CUT...argh.

perhaps it's the book i'm currently reading that's having an effect on my temperament, and my feeling fortunate to have the job that i do. Nickel and Dimed: On (Not) Getting By in America by Barbara Ehrenreich is very interesting - ehrenreich tried living as the working poor do, at a variety of jobs in a variety of places - from being a "merry maid" to working as a waitress and at a wal-mart. and she found just how impossible it is to live on what's supposedly a liveable wage, and the stress involved in trying to make ends meet. thankfully, i'm not in that much of a hole, but i'm still not very well off. it's made me think about the future and what i should be doing - is the trader going to fold and leave me unemployed? will i need to find another job in the near future? should i move in with mom and lower my expenses for a while? *shrug*

had the insurance meeting at work today - how bad was it? well, i burst into tears in the middle of the meeting. i'm so fucked. might have to postpone or cancel my video eeg at the end of the month - i don't have the $300 deductible + $100 hospital visit + 10% of the final bill just sitting around in my bank account. dammit, i should've gotten it done last year. thank god my gall bladder shit happened last year - otherwise, it'd probably cost me $1,500+...argh...

more depressing news later....lemme just say things SUCK.

cute t-shirts...

aww shit, some of the stuff i wanted to get at the doughboy store is sold out already...hafta get those 1200+ doughboy points shipped in soon!!!

another mah jongg-less mah jongg night...at least dale showed up to this one...greg was still awol, off in atlanta or something...so we got dinner from uno and started watching tv - trading spaces is a really neat show on tlc...then, rather than play games, we retired to the living room and watched some stuff we had taped - the weakest link with gary coleman (he confessed on the show - he's a virgin!) and ron jeremy (ron should've won, not that skanky rick rockwell!) after the weakest link, we watched last week's episode of queer as folk - the season two premiere. woah, i forgot how much i love this show! i ordered season one on dvd, i'll be sure to start watching that asap...

so i went and saw cassandra today - i persuaded all the co-workers to cough up a couple of bucks and i went and bought her a plant and some balloons and a card. then i headed up to community hospital...her room was in the stroke center, but right above her room was a "seizure center" sign - guess that's where i'd end up if i started having bad seizures again. but i digress...well, turns out they'd released her from community and sent her to miller's merry manor for rehab. so i went there - it was pretty depressing, it looks like it's mainly an old folks home - lots of shriveled up old white ladies sitting around. i found cassie's room and walked in - i barely recognized her, she looked different. her eyes lit up when she saw me and she said "it's my friend! my friend's here!" i was glad to see her smile, but i'm pretty sure she didn't really recognize me. her daughter shawna and her niece (forget her name) were there, so i told them i was from the trader, and that we were all thinking about cassie and praying for her. when shawna read the card to her mom, she started choking up, about to cry. cassie didn't understand why though - i don't think she understands at all what's happened. she's just like a big kid - like i said about her lighting up when i walked in the room, and she told me all about her babies - the stuffed animals that people brought her. she's having a hard time with the vocabulary too - you can see her trying really hard to think of the words and they just don't come. she also said some stuff to me that just didn't make any sense, i had to smile and nod at her, because it was clear that she thought she was saying something logical to me. it's obviously very hard on shawna - when she walked me out she told me that cassie will be there in rehab for a month probably, and that the doctors were amazed at how well she was doing - her stroke was only a week ago. she said she was just going to try to hang on to her mom's house while she's in rehab, so it sounds like there might be some money problems there.

*sigh* it's just not fair.

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